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Post by justoneme on Mar 18, 2014 14:31:29 GMT -5
Hi Freidns, I have been really depressed lately. I even told a someone I wanted to take pills. That was after an AA meeting. I don't know if I am an alcoholic but I know I have been feeling depressed. Also someone made me mad and I went to the library and looked up how to buy a gun. I don't want to kill myself and let this disease win. Please pray for me. ANd pray I will have the money good health and healthy vehicle to get to meetings I am hoping to go to a meeting tonight for 7pm !! If not there is another meeting at 9:30am at the same church. Jackie
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Post by BW on Mar 19, 2014 12:58:42 GMT -5
Hi Jackie
Most definitely I will be praying for you
Please do not buy that gun...I have been to too many funerals in the 24 hours I have been on this journey of recovery..What I have learned is that those feelings are not facts..number one and secondly whatever it is that I am feeling does in fact pass..
I also have learned that I can turn those feelings over to the God of my understanding
It really doesn't matter if you are an alkie or not..You can attend the open meetings..You can truly benefit from the spiritual principles that accompany the steps if you are willing to work them.
Thank You for sharing with us...Please continue to do so. The journey of recovery is a "WE" thing. None of us has to go thruany part of life on life's terms alone
Peace on the journey
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 5, 2014 19:44:44 GMT -5
Hello Jackie, Hope you are still with us. Depression is part of early recovery especially. We have lost our best friend. Our drug of choice was our best friend that stopped working for us and became our worst enemy. It no longer allowed us to copy and we started to need more, and often it lead us to other things and places and things where we didn't want to and go to get them. We go through a grieving process in early recovery, and unless to speak to someone who knows, many will put you on an anti-depressant, which really isn't the solution. The solution is the 12 Steps of the fellowship that you belong to or identify with. They are the common denominator between all the recovery programs. Alcohol was my beginning and pills were my end, and food seems to be my ever ending. nightingalecenter.com/?p=394www.recover-from-grief.com/7-...-of-grief.htmlGrief can take at least a year. That is why they say when you get your 1st year pin, the work starts now. It takes that long to detox. Alcohol is a drug, it takes 11 months to leave your system. It is a one day at a time program. Even if you are a friend or family of an alcohol or drug addict, you have deeply ingrained feelings that don't come out overnight, scars and issues that don't heal and go away just because you want them. A scar may heal on the surface but that doesn't mean it is completely healed because it may be more than skin deep. So often, we pick up our own drug of choice to deal with their drug of choice using and we become addicted in our own right and it becomes a vicious circle, and we need to get honest. We need to take the focus off them and put them on ourselves. We are powerless over the alcohol(ic), we can't change them, but we can make changes within ourselves, and our life is unmanageable, when we try to play god with our life and that of others.
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