Change

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Today's reminder is a good one. When the pain is bad enough, we finally do something about it.

For me, I generally embrace change. There is no way I want to hang onto the old. Sometimes when I feel comfortable, I know it is time to look at what is going on. What area of my life has become redundant and needs to be revamped.

The Steps are a process. They are ongoing. If I practice them in my life, continue to apply them to all areas of my life, I can't help but grow and change.

I was told I had to change everything. People, place and things not just my drug of choice. I used people, places and things to get my drug of choice, so why not apply my recovery to all areas of my life.

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Close to my Higher Power, I have a place of calm in the midst of difficulty and see the possibilities and dare to act upon them.

- Touchstone

Many people fear change, I embrace it today. I am going through major change these days. I have probably slept more in the last five days than I had in the month of February. It is amazing how much pain is no longer there when you get rest.

I find that sleep in interferring with my reading and computer time. The only problem is that it is more often than not, daytime instead of night time that I am sleeping.

Yesterday I went to bed at 11 a.m. got woke up at 3 p.m. with a phone call, went back to bed, and got woke up with a phone call at 8 p.m. I went back to bed, laid down for about 10 minutes, because I had jumped out of bed really fast. Had to talk to myself about getting up and later had to talk myself out of going back there when I came on line at midnight.

Sleeping has brought a lot of change, but more than anything else it needs acceptance. Old tapes can play and I have to make decisions daily, for what is good for me in today. What use to work no longer does, so I have to rethink the process with the help of my Higher Power.

After I woke up today, I had a prayer and meditation acknowledging my lack of acceptance and asking for help.

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What you are feeling today is not the way you will always feel. Happy or sad, mad, glad, or bad, the one thing you can always count on is that everything changes.

Even though I resist change, there's no way to progress without it.

Really liked this, and makes me aware how all I have is today. Today's feeling don't carry on, even for the day, let alone carry into tomorrow. As they say, "Tomorrow never comes." It is what I do in today that counts.

To steal a quote from Emmett on Dancing with the Stars tonight, If you don't mind, it doesn't matter." I have to care. I have to make today matter. Again, I need to find that acceptance to grow and change.