Prayer

[caressa]

From "A Small White Card":

"Yet I had a spiritual experience the night I called A.A.,
though I didn’t realize it until later. Two angels came,
carrying a real message of hope, and told me about A.A.
My sponsor laughed when I denied that I had prayed for
help. I told him that the only time I had mentioned God was
when, in my despair at being unable to get either drunk or
sober, I had cried out, 'God! What am I going to do?'

"He replied, 'I believe that prayer was a pretty good one for a
first one from an atheist. It got an answer, too.'
– Brighton, Colorado, USA"

Came to Believe, 30th printing 2004, pg. 25

I really like this. How many times I took or spoke God's name in vane. How many times, I ignored His presence and chose to do things my way.

Looking back over the years, He was there. There were many times, that I should have been dead or hurt much more than I was. i.e. I was raped by one guy, there were three in the room.
I was in that situation because I listened to a person I thought was my friend instead of listening to myself.

I could really identify. I just taking more and more, and it wasn't enough. It wasn't until I stopped to think about where I was at and reached out for help, that my life changed.

[majestyjo]

I had faith and lost it. I had to regain in. I had to find out who God was to me. I had to make God personal. I found God to be an old tape. The difference was not the God people told me He was, but God as He revealed Himself to me.

[majestyjo]

I believed in God, I didn't think He believed in me.

[majestyjo]

Had to come to a new understanding.

[caressa222]

The word enough has come up a lot of times lately, often with different meaning. My thought tonight was enough already. Earlier this evening it was 'o need to protect my enough." When we have had enough we reach out and ask for help. When is enough, enough? It varies depending on the person and their willingness to accept there own personal enough.