Letting Go

[caressa]

Letting go of something painful can be as difficult as letting go of something pleasant. But let's face it - holding on is a lot of work. When we really think about what we're holding onto, the effort just isn't worthwhile. It's time to let go of our character defects and ask God to remove them.

Just for today: I'm ready to have my defects removed. I will let go and allow a loving Higher Power to care for me.

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So glad my sponsor told me to balance my inventory with positive as negative things about myself. At the time, they were very hard to find and a lot I wasn't aware of. It helped to be reminded of the phrase, "For every finger you point at someone, you have three coming back at you." So if I saw a goodness in someone, then that meant I had it too in order to recognize it.

Letting go is never easy for me and yet I am not a hoarder at heart. I may hang onto something, but generally it is because I don't know what to do with it, where to put it, or too lazy to take it to the garbage room. That is generally the problem, with fibromyalgia, I have no energy and often forget I have something. I have been known to find something and wonder what it is doing there or wondering how it got there.

When it comes to my feelings, it is much the same way. They have been with me for so long, they are comfortable. As long as they aren't getting in my way in today, why bother. A very defeatest attitude, but lately, everything I go to do is a chore. Thankfully, posting hasn't gotten affected by that. If it does, I might as well let them lock me up and throw away the key.

Not sure this is making sense, I know what I want to say but sometimes my fingers have a mind of there own and I just have to let them be.

[caressa]

When working Steps Six and Seven we honestly have to ask ourselves 'Do I really want to give up the defect? Or do I just want to give up the result of the defect?'

Being an alcoholic does not give me the excuse to act alcoholically.

Pocket Sponsor

This speaks of alcohol, but think it is applicable to all drugs.

That is quite a loaded question and makes you, at least it makes me stop and think. How many times I have said "I don't like this" but how willing was I to stop doing what caused it in the first place. I didn't like the result, but kept using any way, often not even relating the two had an equal part of the equation.