Post by caressa on May 1, 2012 4:54:59 GMT -5
"Walk Softly and Carry a Big Book" - Book
If you are in the wrong place, the right place is empty.
This reminds me of what my spiritual advisor said to me many years ago, if you don't know, the time is not right. When the time is right, you will know.
I have been a very intuitive person for about 13 years. My friend and advisor says, if something is in your way and it is blocking you from the way you would go, did you ever think that your HP was directing your life and wanted you to go another way.
Sometimes I would see someone from recovery or someone who had been recovery and chose to go back out. When that didn't happen, I asked her how come. She said, "Did you ever think that maybe there was someone the other way and it was best for you, not to see that person or have anything to do with their energy. Who knows what is happening over there? If you pray and ask for what is in your best interest, you are guided in the way the Universe wants you to go.
When I have followed this way of thinking, I have received many blessings. For me it is those small things, that turn out to be big things like meeting an old friend as I was coming out of the market and she was going in. Her son belonged to the same group as me and she would often visit. I think I spoke more with her after I left the group than I did while I was a member.
I like the quote, because if the place is empty, that means I can make another decision, turn around and go back to where I am meant to be, even if I am late. I can fill that spot and leave the place I was in for the person who needed that space.
What a thought provoking statement? Not sure if I am right in my own summation, although I believe that the Spirit lead me to AA.
I went to AA because that was where my denial was. I always knew I was an addict. I used many things, food, men, pills, work, computers, etc. It all goes back to the old question, "Am I an addict because I am an alcoholic?" or "Am I an alcoholic because I am an addict?"
It really doesn't matter to me, what I do know is that I need to be in a 12 Step Fellowship. I went to Al-Anon periodically at first, but it became my mainstay in later years.
It doesn't matter what room you put me in, I qualify. I know I used alcohol like I used other substances, especially my relationships. My thinking was, why try to beat them when you can join them. I didn't want to wear a label I put on others, so I tried to shut out my actions under the influence of alcohol. I came to realize, "I can't match them drink for drink and be sober, even though I took them home, could walk and drive a straight line." It was all self-justification.
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.