Post by caressa on Jun 12, 2012 21:50:40 GMT -5
You don't have to eat, breathe, and bathe in our fellowship, but you do need to eat, breathe, and bathe in program. This is because you must practice these principles in all your affairs. The only way to do it in all your affairs is to DO IT in all your affairs.
If I'm working my program, I needn't worry about others working theirs.
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With this depression that I have been going through, I am seeing a doctor on the 21st of June. I am looking forward to seeing someone. I have been using my program for several years to get through what I always called the winter blues, but I think it has developed into something more than that.
Over the years, people have told me that I probably have PTSD and AADD, but no doctor ever labelled me with anything. The last three medications they put me on have been not used for that purpose but when I checked them on the internet, they have an alternative use and that is for psychic patients and I found myself getting very angry. I have found a lot of pressure and headaches and loss of memory and not much recall on this new med, so will be glad to see the doctor on Friday.
My sponsor always said, "If you have recovery show it." With this new medication, I don't feel I show it. It may be just my feeling, but my son says he doesn't like what it does to me, yet he has never seen me when I wasn't sleeping. There has to be a balance, a solution that allows me to sleep when I want to, and allow my body and mind to heal. I don't like this loss of memory, lack of concentration. I haven't been able to play bridge for about 3 months. That isn't me being me, that isn't right. That isn't me living my life on life's terms, unless life's terms have changed, and that means I have to get use to life without bridge and accept it.
This new medication is suppose to make you lose weight. I think it suppresses your appetite or it makes you forget that you were suppose to eat two hours ago, which is not good for a diabetic.
It isn't about what other people do, it is what I need to do for my program. Acceptance has always been difficult with fibromyalgia because it is always changing. It has been the worse it has ever been since I have been diagnosed with it. The Pseudogout is new and I have that in the feet, knees, hands, back, hands, and shoulders. I thought the neuropathy was bad but I think it is the worse for pain, so I am thinking of coming off all the new pills. What is the sense of taking a pill for my neuropathy, which is suppose to help depression and fibromyalgia, when they are worse they have every been, and I still get the pain in the feet. The pill gives me additional side affects of shaking, itches, head aches, loss of concentration and memory loss, and affects my sleeping. So you add a pill that helps with the shaking and two pills for sleeping and I feel like a walking zombie, and my feet are like balloons, so add a couple of water pills. The whole thing is insanity. Sounds like a little of Step Two.
Hey doctors, I am a recovering addict. You say these are not narcotic. They are pills. They affect my thinking. I feel they are mood altering. They have to be changed!
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