Our Own Path

[caressa]

Truth as I see it, may not be how other people view things. It is important for each of us to find our own truth, but to be open to other ideas and concepts that we can learn from others.

As humans, we can have tunnel vision, closed mines, and see things through rose-coloured glasses. If we allow ourselves to be open to new insight, we will grow, but more importantly, feed that 'in-dwelling' Spirit the Soul food it needs.

My son informed me that he has gotten a new apartment through a friend. He also informed me he may need some money to get it set up, but that is okay if it gives him roots. He does have to find his own way, I would rather give him the $50. to have a place than have him land on my doorstep.

He does keep trying. For all the times he has been down, he has picked himself up and tried again. The one thing he has been able to do is keep a job even though it is seasonal. He likes his job, he does well at it, yet come Friday, it is the usual "I deserve a reward!" syndrome that kicks in and robs him of living seven days a week instead of living for Friday night.

He has to walk his path, as I had to walk mine.

[majestyjo]

One thing I have learned over the years, he has a Higher Power and I am not it. He may not believe in his Higher Power and that is okay, that doesn't mean that I have to show him the way.

He is still walking his path, and his path can still come to my door with his hand out, and it is up to me to set the boundaries and detach. As long as he is in his addiction, he will always come with his hand out and most giving is conditional, and a lot of promises are made and broken or rescinded. He is still my son and I love him and I try not to enable him. I do have a problem with seeing him going hungry and walking around skin and bone and yet when he is working, if he chooses to buy drugs instead of food, that is his choice. I am powerless over his decisions.

It is a progressive disease.