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Post by bunnypie on Nov 12, 2016 13:11:22 GMT -5
Hi Jo---There is an old Motown song by Aretha Franklin called RESPECT. I play that song over & over when I feel I am being dis-respected. It helps to put things into perspective for me. Music really helps me to sort things out. It is real difficult when you give a person an inch and they take a mile!!!! Good Luck sorting things out with your son.------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 13, 2016 20:30:23 GMT -5
Just for today, I will let go of my resentments. I really don't like not being able to do what I use to do or what I think I should be able to do. I am a hard Task Master and tend to beat myself up. I will be kind to myself and give myself a break. I need to be my own best friend instead of my worst enemy.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Nov 14, 2016 3:17:02 GMT -5
I understand what you mean about being your own worst enemy and your own best friend. I go back and forth with those 2 emotions. I was so shook up after the near accident with the mattress flying across the windshield that I didn't want to get out of bed or get dressed the next day. I finally got over it and was willing to try to drive again on Sunday. I got showered, dressed, and went shopping. I was delighted to find 3 sweaters that actually fit me for half price!!! So I can be my own best friend or my own worst enemy too!!! You are not alone in feeling that way.......
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 14, 2016 4:16:45 GMT -5
You were probably in shock. That was a scary thing to happen.
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 14, 2016 5:47:09 GMT -5
Just for today, I am grateful for this site. It has been a big part of my recovery, without it, I don't think I would be sober.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Nov 14, 2016 8:32:15 GMT -5
Hey Jo!!!-----you nailed it!!! I was in shock for the whole day after it happened. It was such a strange and scary thing like right out of the Twlight Zone!!! I have been in traffic jams and had people cut me off in traffic but nothing like that ever!!! The realization of what a narrow escape and that God was looking out after me just literally had me shaking uncontrollable. But for the Grace of God (here the hell am I) has been my slogan!!!----Grateful to God Bunnypie  Thanks for saying that! It calms me down and puts it all into prespective..... |
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 14, 2016 17:55:31 GMT -5
Just for today, I will be honest with myself. Where am I in my program? Is there something that I am not doing, that would help me and relieve my pain. It isn't about the other person, it is about me and my attitude.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Nov 14, 2016 19:48:44 GMT -5
Sounds like it is 10th step time???
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 15, 2016 20:38:34 GMT -5
Every day is Step 10 time, some times more than once a day. It is a maintenance Step that is a great tool to help manage my pain.
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 15, 2016 20:48:25 GMT -5
Just for today, I prayed for patience and tolerance. I only had about 3 hours sleep and tried going back and pain kept me awake. I was always haviing to go to the bathroom because of the fluid pills and yet my feet were swollen, so I wasn't a happy camper. I cooked sweet potatoes for my dinner because they are suppose to be high in potassium. That is why I had scalloped potatoes for two days. I have a lot of TV shoes recorded and haven't been able to watch them. I don't like getting behind in things. I am behind in my read too. Most days it is patience and tolerance with me. I need to be my own best friend.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Nov 15, 2016 22:39:57 GMT -5
I have to have patience with my stitches and bandages. I have to change them and put antibiotic cream on the incisions. It hurts like hell to rip the tape off. The tape hurts more then the incision. I don't have a lot of tolerance for changing the bandages. The gauze gets all hunched up and won't lay flat. I am going to the surgeon's office tomorrow to hopefully get all the bandage dressing removed. It has been a real tolerance test with them.......Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 16, 2016 23:16:38 GMT -5
Just for today, I will try to go with the flow. I need to get out of the way and allow my God to the space He needs to meet my needs.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Nov 17, 2016 7:53:01 GMT -5
I was able to get all of the dressings/bandages removed. It felt so much better!!! I was bleeding a little but it didn't last for long. The d**n bandages hurt worse taking them off then the incisions do. The surgeon says I am healing nicely. I have to face a few months of radiation and go back to get checked that all the cancer is gone with a 3-D mammogram. There is light at at the end of the tunnel!!!-----Grateful Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 17, 2016 21:02:57 GMT -5
Hope all goes well for you, continued prayers.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 17, 2016 21:10:21 GMT -5
Just for today, I am back trying to take care of myself. My blood pressure was high, which contributed to an all day headache. It isn't good when it is over 170, which makes me kind of question the medication I am on and will have me a wee talk to with the heart specialist on Monday. I made a point of making and eating a good meal. Have been running a fever, so not sure if I have the flu, a kind of infection, or something else that is disrupting my daily patterns. Just not feeling good, so trying to see what is wrong and the root cause. In today, I won't ignore things and expect them to go away.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Nov 17, 2016 22:06:31 GMT -5
Food & sleep are the 2 things that have helped me to survive. I do the triangle from my bed to the bathroom to computer. I force myself to crawl down 15 steps and hit the kitchen to eat. You are very fortunate to have everything right there and not have to do "the stairway to heaven" it is 15 up and 15 down for me. The doctors and surgeon told me eating & sleeping were what helped me to recover and survive. It is just keeping it simple and doing those 2 things!!! Good Luck!!! I know it's hard cause it feels more like survival then it does living.......
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 18, 2016 23:37:07 GMT -5
Just for today, I will look at things with gratitude. I was glad that I was lead to go downstairs and save the young woman's wallet. Before I went to the library and after I left the library, I ran into AA members. I am grateful that I got some laundry done. Evean more grateful that it is time for bed.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Nov 19, 2016 8:19:41 GMT -5
You really did get a lot done! Knowing when you have done enough is good. Enough is also known as surrender. Surrender to you bed and get some rest!!!---Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 19, 2016 17:51:39 GMT -5
Smiling, I ended up reading and falling asleep in my chair. Not exactly surrender, and I regretted it, I crawled into my bed and slept a long time but not really rested. I hurt from the top of my head to the tip of my toes, much more pain than usual because of the rain outside that wasn't there when I went to sleep.
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 19, 2016 17:52:02 GMT -5
Just for today, I wil practice being honest with myself. Not tell myself what I want to hear, but be truthful and look at what is going on in my life and look at it with honesty and live in reality and not through the rose coloured eyes of denial. I need to look at the true picture portrayed and not fill in the blanks with our own illusions and perception. I will pray that my perception be healed.  |
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.