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Post by majestyjo on Feb 16, 2017 15:22:15 GMT -5
Just for today, I will try to find some acceptance of where I am in today. I had another fall, and I think it is the neuropathy, osteo, and pseudo gout that is causing the problem not my medication. My feet and legs are numb to my knees, my ankles hurt and my feet hurt to bend. I don't think my feet are always flat on the floor. My son has been giving me heck for a while, he keeps saying, "Use your cane Mother so you don't fall." So, again it is Step One. It was the topic for discussion at my group today as we had a newcomer. As one fellow share, "I have to do Step One every day." I thought, "Duh, you know that, my life is unmanageable when managed by me. If I have to control it, it is already out of control. Acceptance is the key to all my problems in today.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 17, 2017 23:32:31 GMT -5
Just for today, I will forgive myself. I spent most of my day in bed. For me that isn't living. I just woke up after a four hour nap. I only was up for six hours today. My heart was acting funny and I couldn't seem to stay awake. I tried to do meditation, and I realize now, that I should have done more. I allowed my pain and my dis-ease to rule my life, and that isn''t an option, if I want to be living sober in today. This looks like they are playing that old game I played as a child, "London Bridge is falling down." I feel like my world is falling down, when I can't get up and do what I need to do each day.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 19, 2017 22:12:08 GMT -5
Just for today, I will practice patience, patience, patience. Didn't like having to cancel my visit to my sister, but when I phoned her, I found out that she hadn't been feeling well for a couple of days. I woke up earlier, but found I just had to go back to bed. I lose patience with myself. I don't need anyone around to lose my patience. My worst enemy can be me.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 22, 2017 21:43:41 GMT -5
Just for today, I will try to follow doctor`s orders. I have to go to see him every week, except for one week where I go to the nerve specialist. No cutting corners, no ifs, ands, and buts, it is do it! No easing off in any way shape or form. I can talk myself into anything and out of everything.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 23, 2017 18:47:18 GMT -5
Just for today, I will continue to practice patience and tolerance. I am grateful for the program, I sure needed it today. I still have to call Darts, so will need it when I speak to them. I have to book to see the heart specialist for the month of March and possibly for April as well. It took such a long time for them to go through when I booked them for my weekly group meetings. One day at a time, things work out in spite of me.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 24, 2017 23:39:01 GMT -5
Just for today, I will remember that for every finger I point out, I have three coming back at me. I have a problem with noise and it is even worse, if it is a raised voice and it is directed at me. There was a time when I would get defensive and make noisy back, but I try not to do that in today. Patience and tolerance were in short supply today.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 26, 2017 0:04:18 GMT -5
Just for today, I will take life as it comes. When I turn my day over to my Higher Power things just seem to fall in place. All I have to do is get out of my own way and leave the debating society behind. I found myself should I, shouldn't I take a taxi to the hospital to see my sister. I decided on the bus. The bus came in 2 minutes, the bus I had to transfer to, was sitting at the other bus stop, and it didn't drive away until after I was in the bus. I asked the driver if she saw me coming. She said, "No, I was too interest in my food." Ironically, when I got to the hospital, my sister was just being served her dinner. I had forgone mine, just ate some fruit and didn't eat until I got home. I think there was a message in there somewhere.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 27, 2017 21:39:00 GMT -5
Just for today, I will turn my will and my life over to the Care of the God of my understanding. It is surprising how things turn out. Good people are put in my path, specials on things I didn't know I needed, and days where I am so full of the spirit, I feel like I could bust. Some days are so filled up, I get tired and have to take a nap. Who would have ever thought that there would be days where there there were just not enough hours in it.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 28, 2017 4:18:14 GMT -5
Just for today, I will try not to procrastinate any longer and get my laundry done. I have too many clothes. How can we go to our closets and say, "I have nothing to wear?" That is not practicing self-honesty. There are clothes there, just not what I want to wear in the moment. There is that voice inside that tells me that I want and need 'more' and the addict in me, go out shopping to see what speaks to them in the moment. When I start thinking more, is when I need to procrastinate and tell myself, I won't listen to that voice in today.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 1, 2017 18:25:30 GMT -5
Just for today, I will focus on what needs to be done and try to stay in the moment. I can read my book while doing laundry, just as easily as I can watching TV. I bought some water, so I can take it down with me. I put an extra $5. on my card, so that shows promise. I will see what happens after I eat dinner. After I have eaten, I have been having pain, so will see how food sits with me today. I have been doing meditation and asking for healing.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 2, 2017 18:06:08 GMT -5
Just for today, I will keep my thoughts and opinions to myself. There are a couple of people in my life that I would like to give some good orderly direction, and it isn't my job. I will leave them in their God's Hands and focus on my own stuff. As they say, "It takes one to know one, so what I see in others is a reflection from within me."  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 3, 2017 23:57:32 GMT -5
Just for today, I will take a time out and not let busy get in the way of the healing energies that are sent through prayer according to my God's Will. I will look at what decisions I made to bring me to where I am at, is it just the honey buns I ate or is their something else I have to change?  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 4, 2017 4:28:31 GMT -5
Just for today, I hope to get some sleep, go downtown and/or do my laundry. I need to do both, but not sure I will have the energy to do both. A lot will depend on the weather as to whether I go out the door.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 5, 2017 4:33:41 GMT -5
Just for today, I will stay in the moment. I won't let my excitement rob me of sleep, so I will be wide awake to meet my internet friend at Tim Horton's for lunch. We have been sharing for several years and look forward to seeing her in person.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 6, 2017 20:54:15 GMT -5
Just for today, I have to be accepting what is in the moment, knowing it is subject to change. This too shall pass, be it the good or not so good, life goes on. I need to let go of the little things as well as the big things.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 9, 2017 0:11:28 GMT -5
Just for today, I will work on my acceptance. I have a lot of doctor's appointment this month. Hope to find some answers. Just trying to stay in the moment, and accept what is, knowing it is subject to change. It is what it is, and all I can do is just try to live in today to the best of my ability. I really need to lower my expectations.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 10, 2017 0:46:21 GMT -5
Just for today, I will remember that I can't get involved in controversy if I practice the slogan, "Live, and let live." I don't have to be a happening, looking for a place to land.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 11, 2017 22:31:00 GMT -5
Just for today, I will face my issues. I will no longer try to stuff them, turn a blind eye to them, and I will acknowledge them and recognize them for what they are.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 14, 2017 13:13:44 GMT -5
Just for today, I will ask for help. That doesn't mean it will be given to me from the Source I expect from, by my Higher Power has never failed me yet. I not only need to be willing to give, I need to be willing to receive. Today I brought my angel cards out for my meditation.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 16, 2017 16:27:27 GMT -5
Just for today, I will be patient. Not only with others, but with myself too. I will stop beating myself up for running over my big toe with my computer chair. I shared about it as a JoAnne thing at my group today. The topics were acceptance, sense of humor, and patience. All things I needed to start my day, and when I remember, it is one day at a time, I can get through things much more easily. I have short time memory loss too. I forgot about those three topics this afternoon, when Darts stood me up and it cost me $6. to come home by taxi.  |
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.