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Post by Misty on Jul 1, 2005 19:58:27 GMT -5
There are things that make me deeply angry and I find it real hard to keep my self control over them. The paychecks weren't ready
for payday today and I have to go back tomorrow and get my paycheck.
It means an extra trip and racing to make it to the bank cuz it closes early on Saturday. The people up stairs have been evicted
but they refuse to move. They are
disgusting free loader parasites but I got to mind my own business
and clench my jaw shut. Do you have self control or anger??? Please let me know!!!! Thanks--Mistyeve
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Post by lildee on Jul 1, 2005 23:31:01 GMT -5
Morning Mistyeve,
Anger/self control
For most of my life I was an angry little SOB....... no a big SOB. LOL Anger raged within my veins. Mostly because wanted everything MY WAY. Nothing was right in my life. Crazy abusive parents. People who were always dying. Yelling, screaming, a house of insanity. And then there was me. Alone, afraid, feeling unloved and unwanted. My acting out was the only way I could get any attention. Everything had to be to the extreme to be noticed. And all this crazy behavior carried on into adulthood.
Today following God's will I am in control of my anger and emotions. It is one of those paradox things. You think your in contol when your not, but then you turn will over to God and the things you want come to you (in God's Time of course.) Not only has God helped with controlling my anger, but I now have tools to work with when I feel the anger rise up within me. I can pray, detach, meditate, among a whole host of other things. It is like the Program has given me the tools on how to be human, instead of an insane raving lunatic.
Love & God Bless
Arlene
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Post by Lin on Jul 2, 2005 3:25:10 GMT -5
Excellent reply Arlene. My home and anger was alot liek you described. ALl I knew from my parents was fighting and screaming. What you live with you practice and what you practice you learn. So I learned really well to yell and scream when things did nto go my way.
And like you say...once i allowed my HP to be in my life, all of those ilusions that i was actually in control disappleared and i found out who was REALLY in control. Having faith that things happened for the best helps me step aside and not worry about it.
When a person is powerless ...and the world around them is spinning our of control, it makes it easy to find anger. YToday I dont have that anger. I can even be around a relapsing A and not be angry. I can find compassion and understanding instead fo thinking he started it back jsut to be mean to ME.
Self control is how I try to stay most of the time. If i dont have that, what i DO have today is sloser to self control than to anger.
LIN
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Post by Misty on Jul 2, 2005 7:35:53 GMT -5
Dear Arlene & Lin---You both have amazing & adult ways to handle your anger. I am so impressed and very grateful to hear that it can be done. I am a heck of a lot better then I used to be (just the fact that I said heck proves that!) I get disgusted and frustrated at the way things are and the best I can do is ask God to either take it or help me to deal with it. I am amazed how much better it has been. There are still plenty of people I would LOVE to kick square in the ass but I don't. I just think about it and that is an improvement for me.
Hey some are sicker then others...
Thanks to both of you for talking
about this real difficult topic!!!
Grateful Hugs---Mistyeve
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.