Post by caressa on Nov 27, 2009 10:03:19 GMT -5
The reading today looks like I should put it in OA, but it reminds me that the substance is but a symptom of my disease and the problem is me.
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The substance can't hurt me until such a time as I choose to injest it in whatever form it takes. It all leads to jails, institution and death.
Many people come into recovery and put on a lot of weight or get caught up in busy so they don't have to look at themselves. They figure that it is healthier than their drug of choice not realizing that they are setting themselves up for strokes, heart attaches, cancer and other medical problems.
Many doctor's do not know much about addiction. They give people anti-depressents and other medications which put on weight and people relapse to get thin. They don't like themselves and when they put on the the extra weight, smoke more cigarettes, drink more coffee, they don't realize that they are continung to do things that are hazardous to their health. I knew I was an alcoholic. I didn't care. Fear couldn't scare me into not drinking. Fear doesn't stop me from using.
I often got into dysfunctional relationships because I wasn't feeling good about myself and looked to someone else to make me feel better.
Then there is the problem of the thinking behind the using. Well I look fat so what is the use! Not eating and not taking medications as prescribed and playing doctor with my life, is just as abusive as taking too many. I can't play doctor with my life and with that of others.
I can remember taking that Zyban pill, and sitting there waiting for the fix to come and asking myself, "I took a pill, why do I still have a craving?" The solution is a spiritual one. I need to fill up with goodness not more of the same. Letting go of old thoughts and behaviors and choosing to no longer live in the I and remember that we can do what I can't do alone.
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The substance can't hurt me until such a time as I choose to injest it in whatever form it takes. It all leads to jails, institution and death.
Many people come into recovery and put on a lot of weight or get caught up in busy so they don't have to look at themselves. They figure that it is healthier than their drug of choice not realizing that they are setting themselves up for strokes, heart attaches, cancer and other medical problems.
Many doctor's do not know much about addiction. They give people anti-depressents and other medications which put on weight and people relapse to get thin. They don't like themselves and when they put on the the extra weight, smoke more cigarettes, drink more coffee, they don't realize that they are continung to do things that are hazardous to their health. I knew I was an alcoholic. I didn't care. Fear couldn't scare me into not drinking. Fear doesn't stop me from using.
I often got into dysfunctional relationships because I wasn't feeling good about myself and looked to someone else to make me feel better.
Then there is the problem of the thinking behind the using. Well I look fat so what is the use! Not eating and not taking medications as prescribed and playing doctor with my life, is just as abusive as taking too many. I can't play doctor with my life and with that of others.
I can remember taking that Zyban pill, and sitting there waiting for the fix to come and asking myself, "I took a pill, why do I still have a craving?" The solution is a spiritual one. I need to fill up with goodness not more of the same. Letting go of old thoughts and behaviors and choosing to no longer live in the I and remember that we can do what I can't do alone.
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