So much to say!

[caressa]

For so many years, I feared saying the right thing and doing the right thing. When I was married, I generally got put down and often hit and told to shut up and who asked for my opinion. I was told my opinion didn't matter. With this in mind, I very seldom spoke up. My needs were never fulfilled and all my resentments and hurt just pilled up inside of me. When they got too much, often I would explode, do the tear thing, then be embarrassed and shamed.

Learning to express myself and know that I had a right to speak up was a real gift. I am worthwhile.


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[majestyjo]

When I went to the Dini Petti show a few years ago in Toronto, she had on an intuitive healer. She said, "If you have a sore, croaky, raspy throat, it is often a symptom that we are withholding our words, not saying what we want to say, not speaking up and expressing our true feelings.

She also said teary, tired eyes could mean I didn't want to see what I was seeing and sore ears in any way, like ringing, buzz, ache, etc. meant we didn't want to hear what we were hearing because we were in denial and not wanting to deal with the issues and events in the moment.

It seemed I internalized things, or I erupted and reacted to every thing, with no control of my emotions. I think I did more harm internalizing them, because they would fester and grow, often beyond recognition, and as they say, "Mountains out of mole hills."

So grateful for the program that helped me with my emotional sobriety.