Trust

[caressa]

The last two reading have been about truth and trust. For me, if I don't know my own truth, it is almost impossible to trust.

Every time I picked up, I lost a piece of me. I lived my life through other people. My life was spent making them happy. If they were not happy, it was my fault, and I continually took on things that were not mine to take on.

I had to find out who my Higher Power was and what He/She/It meant to me. I was told all my life who God was. I had to go on a spiritual quest, which took me in many directions, to see find out the God of my own understanding.

At first, I used the God of my childhood. Yet I was angry at Him and wasn't too trusting. On my spiritual journey, I found that my God was too big to leave in a church.

Through learning to trust in my Higher Power, I learned to trust myself. My sponsor told me many years ago, "If you don't trust yourself, you are not trusting your God."

[BW]

I'm learning more and more about trusting in the God of my understandig and in today's world that is becoming even more important...My belief is it is trust God and love people...unfortunately many individuals cannot be trusted...there are some...don't get me wrong...but I have to trust God to lead to to those that I can trust...and it is only thru God that I can learn to love people and to learn to love the unloveable...

[caressa]

Many people feel that their God tests them, I think we test God. We have that inner knowing if we ask for it. We are comfortable with habits, patterns, and actions that have to our mind, stood us in good stead. We fear going outside the box. We fear taking risks and we stay in the old instead of trusting God to take the next Step.