Post by caressa on Nov 29, 2010 9:15:27 GMT -5
When I came into recovery, I knew there was a God. I believed in Him but didn't think He believed in me.
What I had to learn was that I had to put my life into His Care. If I turned my life into His care, then things would happen for the better. If I allowed Him to manage and direct my life, then I would not need to stress out because I was too overwhelmed, too anxious, and too confused to do it for myself.
I didn't know that God cared for me. I was told from the time I was able to understand, that Jesus loved me. On the other hand, I was told that good little Christian girls didn't do, just about anything to my way of thinking. I wanted to do, so therefore He didn't love me. I was a bad girl. In recovery, I learned that I wasn't a bad girl trying to get good, I was a sick peron who had a dis-ease and I was trying to find a way to ease the pain and live a better life. It didn't mean I had to become a saint, all I had to do was be me. First I had to find out who I was.
I found that God was an old tape. I went on a spiritual quest to find out who God was to me. I learned to understand and trust my God and through Him, learned to love and trust myself.
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What I had to learn was that I had to put my life into His Care. If I turned my life into His care, then things would happen for the better. If I allowed Him to manage and direct my life, then I would not need to stress out because I was too overwhelmed, too anxious, and too confused to do it for myself.
I didn't know that God cared for me. I was told from the time I was able to understand, that Jesus loved me. On the other hand, I was told that good little Christian girls didn't do, just about anything to my way of thinking. I wanted to do, so therefore He didn't love me. I was a bad girl. In recovery, I learned that I wasn't a bad girl trying to get good, I was a sick peron who had a dis-ease and I was trying to find a way to ease the pain and live a better life. It didn't mean I had to become a saint, all I had to do was be me. First I had to find out who I was.
I found that God was an old tape. I went on a spiritual quest to find out who God was to me. I learned to understand and trust my God and through Him, learned to love and trust myself.
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.