the journey to finding out who i am

[lala]

today ive been reflecting on the journey im on to finding myself finding out who i am what im about and what drives my bus for so long in active addiction i knew i was somewhere but so clouded by my disease i couldnt and wasnt able to see me the real me today in recovery i am trying to find me the inner me thats been lost for so long i was asked the question recently " who are you what drives your bus?".........i had no reply i was honestly stumped because i dont really know but im on the road to finding out and its the self discovery of living life on lifes terms and having a true relationship with my higher power that im slowly finding out what and who i am some of its painful to look at but some of it is a blessing to know and i learn more about myself everyday that i am sober and the constant reaching out and staying connected that keeps me on this road im so greatful to be a part of aa and child of god i never knew it could be this good .............lala

[ChrisK]

It's accepting who runs the show. 417 in the new edition We're all just bit players. When, we accept that it does get easier

[TxRainwater]

Thanks for sharing LaLa,
Good to know I wasn't the only one that was driving my own bus! lol I have taken the passenger seat now and just ride along and try not to be one of those 'backseat drivers'. I am enjoying more things this way today.
I like that, Chris, I only have a bit part in this play of life and now I know the director , I just have to let him/her stay in charge and do as I am told, *smiles*

Love and Light,
Brenda

[mender1]

Hello,
Well i have put a few miles on my bus and wreck it a couple of times.
I came to realize that we are spiriual people having a human experience.
We must let our spirit guide us
I have a very hard and cold human side of me and one that had no emotion's no remorse.
My spirit is gentle and loving filled with compassion.
In finding myself I found that spirituality is the key.
Not saying but living a spiritual life .
opening myself to the complete circle and not trying to be the center.
People in this day and age do not want to believe that spirituality is this key.
We can not touch it see it with our eyes.
We must feel it .
Find the spirit of one self and you will find yourself

[mizeeyore59]

The way I figure it, you're driving the bus, but your higher power issues the driver's license. The best I can do most days is drive it in the right direction.

[~graced~]

Came a point in sobriety when I asked the sponsor "but if I give THAT up, who will I be!?" I was scared to death of what would be left of 'me' should I keep coming back, work the steps and truly surrender my will to G-d's.

His answer was pretty simple.
He assured me that I'd be exactly who I was designed to be, who I already was, who I'd forever be--a child of G-d.
Now, embracing that was a trick. Fear, guilt, false pride tried to cheat me out of what allowing myself to be embraced as G-d's child brings.

Daily, I remind myself of 'who I am'...I get out of bed in the morning and greet Him and remind me that I'm an alcohoic. He gently reminds me that I'm His child. Sober, clean.... and letting myself be loved by G-d...it don't get much better than that!

[majestyjo]

"My spirit is gentle and loving filled with compassion.
In finding myself I found that spirituality is the key.
Not saying but living a spiritual life .
opening myself to the complete circle and not trying to be the cente"

Love the last line, says it all for me. I complete the circle. Don't leave anyone outside the circle.

I am a part of the whole. The real me was there all alone she had just bern covered up and pieces had been lost along the way. This is a program of reflection and I found myself and faces of the people around me. The people in the program will be back to good health. There is nothing more powerful then the circle at the end of the meeting.

Without you there is no me.