Post by caressa on Dec 27, 2010 6:21:15 GMT -5
On Christmas Eve, I went to the Carol fest at my sister's church. She was singing in the choir. When I went into the church with my brother-in-law, they offered me a book and he said, "Oh she is with me." I don't know if he was saving books or not, but there was not a big crowd. I looked at it as his control issues. 
At the beginning, I got annoyed because I couldn't see the words with my reading glasses or without them. I lucked out when the carol was on my side of the page and even then I had difficulty.
I recognized the old behaviors and resentments setting in, especially when I am around 'church' people. I had to turn it over and just decide to enjoy the music and just let go and let God. I didn't go there to get ticked off, I went there to give thanks for the holiday.
I later found myself sharing with the minister at the back of the church while waiting for them to socialize. He was a very nice man and I liked it even better that it was singing and no preaching although I didn't say that to him. I don't think I would have minded what the man had to say. He seemed to ooze spirituality and it was a joy to talk to him. I shared with him that because of health issues, I had become closer connected to my Higher Power than I had at any other time in my life.
It is about me and my attitude. What needs to be changed in me. My drugs (pills, alcohol, men, work, food, etc.) were my Lower Power for years. They are what I lived for. Today, I can get out of the way, and allow my Higher Power to work through me. I need that connection. I need to go within and not look outward for instant gratification.
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At the beginning, I got annoyed because I couldn't see the words with my reading glasses or without them. I lucked out when the carol was on my side of the page and even then I had difficulty.I recognized the old behaviors and resentments setting in, especially when I am around 'church' people. I had to turn it over and just decide to enjoy the music and just let go and let God. I didn't go there to get ticked off, I went there to give thanks for the holiday.
I later found myself sharing with the minister at the back of the church while waiting for them to socialize. He was a very nice man and I liked it even better that it was singing and no preaching although I didn't say that to him. I don't think I would have minded what the man had to say. He seemed to ooze spirituality and it was a joy to talk to him. I shared with him that because of health issues, I had become closer connected to my Higher Power than I had at any other time in my life.
It is about me and my attitude. What needs to be changed in me. My drugs (pills, alcohol, men, work, food, etc.) were my Lower Power for years. They are what I lived for. Today, I can get out of the way, and allow my Higher Power to work through me. I need that connection. I need to go within and not look outward for instant gratification.
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.