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Post by mender1 on Jul 3, 2004 8:05:08 GMT -5
Today will be different because I have a choice today.
A choice to drink or not drink.
A choice to use or not use.
AA/NA
Has given me a a choice
There once was a time when I went to sleep I was thinking of the morning when I could smoke the left handed lucky I had rolled for the trip to the bathroom in the morning.
I did not like to drink in the morning but I have had Whitecastles and Beer for breakfast before.
I liked to get a little high in the morning and drink at night.
I look back and wonder in amazement that I survived
my addiction.
I have a choice today that is why it will be different
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Post by ~graced~ on Jul 3, 2004 8:27:49 GMT -5
Good morning, Owen....nice to hear from you!
Why will today be different?! Wow...well, it'll be different cuz I'm sure G-d's got great plans and I'll get to experience them to their fullest. And you're right, it all goes back to that choice I made this morning when I fell outta bed, hit my knees, reminded G-d and me that I'm an alcoholic and an addict, and surrendered one more time....cuz today I know I have a choice to live in the insanities of the disease, or live in the solution.
It's a great day already, knowing who's taking care of today's agenda....and no doubt, it'll be an awesome 24 hours!
You have a great 24 hours! And thanks for sharing this morning!
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Post by Tiger on Jul 3, 2004 11:09:22 GMT -5
I know this is a "play" on semantics and we all mean the same thing but I am on the other side of the same coin.
For me, drinking is *not* an option.....no matter what
I have "no choice" to drink. My sobriety demands "unconditional surrender"......no matter what!
Tiger
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Post by knothead on Jul 3, 2004 21:45:48 GMT -5
For me, drinking is *not* an option.....no matter what
I have "no choice" to drink. My sobriety demands "unconditional surrender"......no matter what!
Umm . . . You & General Grant would have hit it off great!!!!!!
No, seriously, I admire your tact, to be totally honest. It is something not often seen or heard within "these walls." It is definitely something I personally need reminding of, if I want truly want this way of life.
Drinking will certainly screw up my sobriety. ;D
However, before, I had no choice over whether to drink or not drink; whether to use or not use. In the end, I drank because I couldn't *not drink.* I was over-welmed. It consumed me. I was no longer consuming *it.*
This program has given me a choice that I never had before. And I thank you all.
Tiger[/b][/quote]
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Post by mender1 on Jul 4, 2004 14:30:33 GMT -5
There once was a time where I had no choice,
I knew I would use,I knew I would drink because it is how I survived.
Today I am not surviving I am Living,
To drink is not a option,to get high is not a option.
Was there once was a time where if a drink or your favorite drug was in front of you you would use.
Without choice.
We are doing the same thing just from a different point of observation.
I was just grateful for being able to say no
I would joyfully not ben able to do so in the past.
I can choose to drink if I want what I had before
I have another drink in me but I am not sure about another recovery.
Good shares thanks
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Post by caressa on Nov 4, 2012 15:37:49 GMT -5
Using was not an option. By the time I came to the doors of recovery, it was do or die. I realized that I had a lot of choices to make, because choices could lead me back to using again. I used pills to get off of alcohol, and that didn't work, in the end I was using both.
In recovery, I found the same soul sickness when I used my computer, food, and busy, to take me out of myself and helped me to stuff my feelings. I was heading for a relapse. I had to apply the 12 Steps to ALL areas of my life.
As it says in the quote, today I am not surviving, I am living. That is why I can't allow my pain to rule my life. I have to keep on doing, one day at a time.
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 16, 2014 0:14:47 GMT -5
Drinking is still not an option. It is nice to see words that don't grow old that still hold true in today. Today, I had pain that hit the top of the chart twice, really scared me. New pain, unusual pain, and when I stopped, because I am given that moment to pause and think, it is because I am coming off the medication the doctor gave me and my body is doing weird things. I have to recognize this and not go into a panic mode and immediately reach for a pill bottle, but reach for a crystal and go into prayer mode. My Fibromyalgia has been triggered badly by the stress in my life and a lot has been happening, the pain is much worse than usual, but thanks to this program, I don't have to pick up. I might not always be able to be able to sit at the computer, but I know I don't have to go back to where I came from. Today I had major healing, I have faith in the program and I have faith in the healing power of my God.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Sept 22, 2020 23:20:31 GMT -5
Have been in the hospital for too long. There is to be a meeting tomorrow to see if I am well enough to go home and quote with life on my own. I had to refuse a medication the doctor put me on. It wasn't discussed with me and they didn't tell me the name. I found out it was an antidepressant that I had been put on before and I had to come off of it.
I have many labels, I class it all as pain. I pray and ask for what I need to deal with it. It doesn't matter the source, just for today I choose not to use
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.