Post by caressa on Jan 23, 2011 14:11:17 GMT -5
Was thinking about how much I wanted to do certain things in the last week, but not committing to them. I was doing two or three things at the same time and realizing that I am back caught up in busy and not taking the time to be with myself.
Sometimes those unspoken words are a lie! I am not being honest with myself. It is like, "If I say it, I might believe it, do it, and/or acknowledge it, then I would have to change it.
The hurtful part of denial, it only builds up and when I finally do acknowledge it, get honest, then I often have a big issue to deal with instead of something that is manageable. It is then a God-issue for sure.
When I have a true honest look at myself, I don't have to judge or condemn, I just have to accept what is and know that with my God, I can change.
When I am back into an old pattern and behavior, I know I am being dishonest or I have been dishonest with myself, to find myself in that situation. We pick up mentally, emotionally, and spiritually before we physically pick up.
As an Al-Anon member, who also qualifies for Nar-Anon, it isn't always easy to depict a relapse. For me, it generally means tat I have picked up somone else to caretaker or go back into old scenarios with my A.
Sometimes those unspoken words are a lie! I am not being honest with myself. It is like, "If I say it, I might believe it, do it, and/or acknowledge it, then I would have to change it.
The hurtful part of denial, it only builds up and when I finally do acknowledge it, get honest, then I often have a big issue to deal with instead of something that is manageable. It is then a God-issue for sure.
When I have a true honest look at myself, I don't have to judge or condemn, I just have to accept what is and know that with my God, I can change.
When I am back into an old pattern and behavior, I know I am being dishonest or I have been dishonest with myself, to find myself in that situation. We pick up mentally, emotionally, and spiritually before we physically pick up.
As an Al-Anon member, who also qualifies for Nar-Anon, it isn't always easy to depict a relapse. For me, it generally means tat I have picked up somone else to caretaker or go back into old scenarios with my A.
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.