I've never told anyone this

[DJgrrl]

I wen through a lot of healign work a while back. One of the thigns that came up was the terror I went through from my older brother. I remember him being at home with me. Not sure where my mom and dad were. He was trying to get our dog to do tricks and when the dog wouldn't do them.. he started hitting the dog with a hockey stick. I remember beign curled up on the couch in fear for my life. I knew if it wasn't the dog it would be me.
I ran out of the hosue into the arms of another abuser. My brother use to get beat by my mom too. Along with me. when I would tell my mom that my brother was hitting me she would blame me for my mouth. That's how i tried to protect myself. Another time he did leave me black and blue and i went to my sister house. I was a teen at the time. She didn't do anything but keep the secret even more so.
i think my borther ws ussing drugs at the time. I recall my mom telling me she went to the Dr. to ask him what certain stuff was that she found. it was hash oil.
Doctors must be considered enablers in this circle. My mom still goes to the same Doctor. She abuses alcohol and gravol and other over the counter drugs. Has for a logn time. I don't think she would ever tell her doctor.

[caressa]

Thank you for sharing. I lived several years of abuse. It seemed normal for me. Quite often the abused becomes the abuser and I started hitting back. That doesn't make it right and all leads to the same soul sickness.

[SunnyGirl]

Thank you for sharing DJgrrl

One of the Promises of ACOA is.....

Gradually, with our Higher Power's help, we learn to expect
the best and get it.

My life is pretty quiet today and I try to avoid looking back
at all the yesterdays that may have brought me pain. It's
my goal to get up each day and make the most out of each
day.... I've made my peace with the past! ODAT

Peace on the journey, SunnyGirl

[Lin]

Thanks for sharing DJ. I try to look back on my childhood and find somethign positive to remember. If I dwell on the cruddy parts, I'll jsut make myself miserable. My parents are long gone. My dad died in 1976 and my mom abtou 5 years after that. So when I bring to mind things they did or failed to do, it does nto help me heal. I try to remember good ...and the only 2 things I can remember are they sent me to college and they bought me a used car with i was 16. thsoe 2 thigns were important to me and positive. It's sad that your pet was abused and that your family enables the abusers. Youc an get past this. Your safety and well being are worth whatever you have to do to distance yourself from the craziness.

hang in there!
LIN

[caressa222]

TO ME, THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR ABUSE, BE IT PHYSICAL, EMOTIONAL, MENTAL AND PHYSICAL. The emotional scars are deeperand take longer to heal.