I am unique . . . .

[knothead]

NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boy, do we ever want to beleive that "unique" BS!!!!!!!

Had a newcomer at the meeting just last night that basically told my own story (about 10 years or so ago).

I had to relive that crap. But I also smiled (on the inside) because I had been there.

I shared my story at the meeting.

And this guy came to me afterwards, asking me to be his sponsor.

I had to refuse, because I haven't even worked 4th step yet, this time around. But I did refer him to my own sponsor.

Man, DID THAT BRING ME BACK DOWN TO EARTH, or what???

That was uplifting and humbling at the same time.

Kinda weird.

We usually get what we need, not what necessarily we want.

Because, even though I know the 12 steps (intellectually), I have yet to live all of them.

I know my limitations, and my ego says "that sucks!"

But I'll be d**ned if I'm gonna lead someone else down the wrong path because of "self-will-run-riot." Not if I can help it. Certainly not while working this program myself.

[dudehead]

Knot:

I bet just sharing this post with him would help him. There's alot of good stuff in what you shared. It helped me.

Thanks

[~graced~]

LOL Knothead

Yep, my ego WILL tell me how much it sucks--dunno about you, but I tend to get a dose of humility right when I need it. Being of the intellectual type, I could reason out the unreasonable...folks tell me I could sell pork to the Rabbi..LOL Probably true on any given day.

Ya done good, though! Humbling as it was, seems to me ya done good!
*hugs*

I always get what I need....it's not necessarily what I want, but I'm very, very clear that I do NOT know what's best for me.......still.......yet.......

And I agree with dudehead.
Thanks for giving me a dose of what I needed this morning.

[mender1]

Well I am unique
We all are in our own way
but I am no more special than anyone else.
To humble is to put myself in a position to learn,
To admit I do not know how is a major step in my recovery.
It may be time to take a good look at this 4th step and put it in the past and be over it.

[knothead]

mender1 said:

Well I am unique
We all are in our own way
but I am no more special than anyone else.
To humble is to put myself in a position to learn,
To admit I do not know how is a major step in my recovery.
It may be time to take a good look at this 4th step and put it in the past and be over it.

Thanks so much, meander1.

I am working on it as we speak.

Need to clean out the garage.

Carry out the garbage.

This crap has kept me down too long, now.

I need to move on.

But I need to do it an orderly way.

Because I'm a perfectionist.

And that sucks, too.

To be honest, I didn't care so much when I was drinking/using.

It's weird, in a way.

The proverbial double-edged sword that cuts both ways.

EXCUSES!!!!!! I'm full of them!!!

I hate looking at me & my failures. It sucks.

The final point is that "I can't & God can - I think I'll let Him."

"Turning it over" is huge for this old drunk.

You guys are great @ EOR!!!!!! I thank you, one and all.