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Post by BW on Feb 18, 2011 12:41:05 GMT -5
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It often happens that you won't know the role addiction played in your life until you stop using. You have replace roles now. Learning new skills, and this is done at meetings and with your sponsor, is a necessary step in adjusting to your new circumstances.
Rather than see additional burdens in new tasks, I choose to see them as a breath of new life.
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Post by BW on Feb 19, 2011 14:01:46 GMT -5
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It is easier for us to blame others (parents, spouses, friends) for our addiction then it is to look at self. We must never forget that we drank that drink, snorted that coke, toked that joint, and took that fix. US. 'They' didn't do it.
May I never forget that I used too many mind affecting chemicals because I have the disease of addiction! Other reasons are not causes. Everyone has problems yet not everyone suffers from addiction.
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Post by BW on Feb 21, 2011 13:13:26 GMT -5
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One of the games our mind plays with us during withdrawal is to suggest that if we were addicted to one chemical, that was our problem and maybe we could use another type of chemical to help us. But switching chemicals will insure that we never get well, because the disease is not a chemical--it is a dysfunction to any mind-affecting chemical.
If I learn nothing else this hour, help me understand that the disease is not a drug but a reaction to drugs.
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Post by caressa on Feb 21, 2011 13:23:08 GMT -5
Good one! It isn't the substance, the problem is me. I don't metabolize them like other people do. Substitution doesn't work. It all leads to the same soul sickness.
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Post by ~graced~ on Feb 21, 2011 19:48:36 GMT -5
I've learned this lesson--an addiction is an addiction is an addiction.
I didn't have a problem with alcohol when I got clean, dontchaknow.
And I didn't have a problem with food when I got sober either, thankyouverymuch.
And yes, I salivate when the lights go off and the sirens sound when a 'jackpot' happens--even on the nickel machine.....which is why I choose to not gamble today.
I GET IT!
Only took me......oh....... LOL Let's not even go there! ;-)
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Post by caressa on Feb 21, 2011 23:49:18 GMT -5
Yeah! Me too! I just walked into a Casino and felt the high. My immediate thought was, "I don't belong here." I never went back. Free booze is too much. As they say, "Don't bet any more than you can afford to lose." I can't afford to lose much money. Even more important, I can't afford to lose my sobriety.
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Post by BW on Feb 22, 2011 13:57:56 GMT -5
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It has been said that there are only two times you have to diligently work this program, the first 30 days and every day after that! Actually if you think about it, that only means one day, today.
Help me work this program to the best of my ability today.
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Post by BW on Feb 23, 2011 13:33:00 GMT -5
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Self will and 'running the show' can be like the monkey who sticks his hand into the trap for food. He grasps the food tightly creating a fist that won't fit out the trap door. The monkey struggles but won't release the food and he is trapped. Simply letting go would free him. Holding tight to your will and your way can be the fist that traps you. Let Go and Let God.
I let go of my tight grip by not insisting everything be my way. I say, 'Let Go and Let God' often to remind myself I don't want to be trapped. What a relief.
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Post by caressa on Feb 23, 2011 18:11:42 GMT -5
Like this, I remember that old saying about someone putting their hand into a jar and grabbing as much as they can and unwilling to let go in order to get their hand back out.
It reminds me that my addiction says, some is good, more is better. If everyone works together, a lot can be accomplished. We can do what I can't do alone.
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Post by BW on Feb 24, 2011 10:26:46 GMT -5
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For awhile, you will have to adjust to every new day without your beloved and betrayed drug of choice. You will sometimes wonder, 'Will I ever get used to this?'
Each dawn heralds a new day and I must reinvest with new people and new principles. It is not easy but I emerge from the dark through the dawn of the 12 steps.
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Post by BW on Feb 25, 2011 14:41:24 GMT -5
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I only have one character defect left and it's just that I think about myself **** near all the time.
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Post by BW on Feb 26, 2011 12:17:58 GMT -5
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There is a fundamental unity that underlies the fellowship of our programs. It is this unity that can comfort us and help us hold on when we want a fix, pill, drink, smoke, or snort more than we want this new unfamiliar life.
God, as I understand You, show me how to take comfort from the unity of fellowship when drugs call me back.
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Post by caressa on Feb 26, 2011 16:41:13 GMT -5
One of my favorite sayings is "It is an inanimate object until such a time as I choose to pick it up be it solid, liquid, powdered, or the flesh and blood variety.
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Post by BW on Feb 27, 2011 15:13:30 GMT -5
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Sometimes you won't be able to trust that all will be well. You'll think 'it isn't well' and 'I don't want to hear others telling me it will be all right.' OK. Be angry. Now go do something that is suggested to you today. Make a phone call to your sponsor, make a meeting, help another in early recovery. Channel your anger toward action.
Grant me the strength to do one activity today that is suggested in the books or by a fellow member in recovery.
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Post by BW on Mar 1, 2011 14:27:27 GMT -5
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You transform into your own best ally as you face your fears. Humanity's greasiest fear is the fear of death, physiologists tell us. The death of your addiction is forcing you to confront how close you brushed by death and in this confrontation an equally potent force will rise up to meet your fear and demonstrate your courage.
Even in the face of fear and death my true ally inside arises to demonstrate my courage.
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Post by BW on Mar 2, 2011 11:01:25 GMT -5
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During crisis, we must not act as isolated persons with nothing gained from fellowship. We stick together. If one of us pulls away, we pull them back. WE recover as WE, not as an I.
As I walk this road of recovery, let me know I don't walk alone. In fact I march in an army of WE.
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Post by caressa on Mar 2, 2011 15:40:30 GMT -5
Made it to my meeting today. I needed the attitude adjustment. There were only a few people there and no one had the folder to chair to meeting in front of them so I sat down in front of it. Chairing the meeting is always good for me.
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Post by BW on Mar 3, 2011 12:48:59 GMT -5
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We have been known to think that dishonesty with others was OK as long as it didn't 'hurt' them. We really don't know what will hurt another or not. Being dishonest with other people deprives them of the information they need to run their own lives.
Honesty is honesty. Let me understand that 'little' dishonesties are a disservice to others as well as myself.
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Post by caressa on Mar 3, 2011 14:06:03 GMT -5
Always saw myself as an honest person, even prior to recovery. I was surprised how much I lied by omission and only telling people what I thought they wanted to hear.
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Post by BW on Mar 4, 2011 12:19:08 GMT -5
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Are we remembering the so-called 'good times' right now? How nice a 'high' would be? We use this hour to REALLY think about what got us to this fight for sobriety. It wasn't because we were having a lot of fun!
Thank you, God, for the beautiful day I'm going to have if I can just get rid of my attitude.
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.