Post by caressa on Mar 1, 2011 23:49:25 GMT -5
This was a good reminder of what it use to be like and what it is like now. I use to go into grocery stores, leave a buggy in the aisle with groceries in it or I would put everything back because I couldn't stand the crowds, or was filled with fear and couldn't handle the situation and would leave the store.
I would get off a bus and wait for the next one because the bus gut too crowded or someone was loud and makeing a lot of noise. Shouting was and still can be a real trigger for me.
I had a fear of bridges and walking over grates. The fears went away in recovery. I ended up walking over them and not even noticing or notice them and not get that frilly feeling in my tummy! Each time I went over them for the first time without fear was when I was helping others. I was taking a friend to a meeting and was on my way to talk to a sponsee who wanted to meet for coffee.
I have had thoughts of leaving a bus but haven't done it lately. I did use the noise on one a few weeks ago to help make the decision to get off the bus and go back to a store to check out something. I had the thought, discounted it, got on the bus, and went about 4 blocks, got off and walked back.
I can get chest pains, which I figure is either a panic attack or fibromyalgia, either way, when I sit, meditate, take deept breathes, they go away. My God is only a breathe away. It only takes minutes, sometimes second to connect with Him.
As the reading says:
"[The] Power that brought us to this program is still with us and will continue to guide us if we allow it."
Basic Text, p. 26
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I would get off a bus and wait for the next one because the bus gut too crowded or someone was loud and makeing a lot of noise. Shouting was and still can be a real trigger for me.
I had a fear of bridges and walking over grates. The fears went away in recovery. I ended up walking over them and not even noticing or notice them and not get that frilly feeling in my tummy! Each time I went over them for the first time without fear was when I was helping others. I was taking a friend to a meeting and was on my way to talk to a sponsee who wanted to meet for coffee.
I have had thoughts of leaving a bus but haven't done it lately. I did use the noise on one a few weeks ago to help make the decision to get off the bus and go back to a store to check out something. I had the thought, discounted it, got on the bus, and went about 4 blocks, got off and walked back.
I can get chest pains, which I figure is either a panic attack or fibromyalgia, either way, when I sit, meditate, take deept breathes, they go away. My God is only a breathe away. It only takes minutes, sometimes second to connect with Him.
As the reading says:
"[The] Power that brought us to this program is still with us and will continue to guide us if we allow it."
Basic Text, p. 26
eor.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=spuds&action=display&thread=10653
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.