I'm having a sucky day.....

[~graced~]

Okay, so it's probably more like "I've had some really sucky moments today!"

I had a gal quit unexpectedly at work today--no notice, no real explanation--it leaves things messy for a whole lot of folks. Geeze, what ever happened to two week notices. *sigh*

The phone hasn't been working all weekend--and while that makes for a quiet weekend, it's an inconvenience and interferes with my ability to do my job. Oy....dealing with phone companies is---interesting.

I ran into Jim, the 'other' neighbour--who told me that Leroy (the old fart across the street) would be returning from the hospital tomorrow or Friday. (YEAH!) But Jim needed to tell me he'd talked with Leroy and Leroy wanted to make sure that 'stuff' was passed on to me..... Stuff like 'they've stopped treatments for the cancers cuz they're not working'. Stuff like 'he'll be coming home with a hospital bed and a wheelchair'. Stuff like "you tell her, so she's not all sad or worried when she sees stuff happening". Stuff like--"I've had a happy, full life and it's all been good. You tell her to be saying prayers of thanks cuz it's been a great life!"

Jim felt a high need to change the conversation--probably cuz we were both teary. He said I looked pretty spiffy and asked what the occasion was. Had to tell him I was on my way to the memorial for a 3 year old child of a coworker who died after being struck by a car when he bolted from his mother. I wasn't prepared for that experience.

Maybe it was the two incidents compiled into one.
I'm just d**n sad.

I think I'm even a bit miffed with G-d about these things. I'm thinking that's okay though...I know He gets I can be mad and still love Him.

Gotta admit--it's put a whole lotta other 'stuff' in perspective.
It's all small stuff, ya know? And I'm graced to have what I have today--my sobriety, my health.....an awesome opportunity day in day out at work to touch lives, a whole host of people who care about me and love me. And a cell phone that works when the house phone won't!

Yep....I am graced.

And for those inclined to pray, I'd ask that you pray for Leroy as he wishes--that you make it a prayer of thanks for this man having such a rich and joyfilled life.

Thanks......

[lildee]

My dearest sweetest graced,

Dealing with reality sucks. There are times when we all want to run and hide under a rock. After burying my whole family and my husbands family death and illness still doesn't get any better or easier. The one thing that I have learned though I would like to share with you. You are born , you live, and you die, that is reality. But it is all the lives that you have touched while you were alive that makes a difference. It is not the millions of dollars that you will leave behind, or the years of education,the jewels, cars, or houses, it is the simple stuff that you will be remembered for. A kind word, a gentle smile, an outreached hand offering help. I know you have touched my life, just as surely as you have touched your friends. Grieving and sorrow are OK. They are human emotions that express our care and love for another person. Bad days come and bad days go, but there is always the hope of tomorrow. Even as my grandfather laid in his hospital bed dying he knew there was still a tomorrow. It may not be on this world it very well may be in a better place. Where there is no pain or suffering. A world filled with light , love and angels and an all powerful God to provide for us.

Love you my friend, and care care of yourself.
God Bless
Arlene


ps prayers going out for your friend as requested.

[Lin]

I normally dont post on this side of the halllway, but your post moved me to reply.

Sucky week? I'd say so. I'm so sorry about the loss of the young child and the story about Leroy. I certainly WILL pray for you and your friends.

Lildee said it well. You have touched many lives while on this earth, Morey. I am one of them. And I thank you .With all the pigeons you work with each year, i know you have also touched thousands of other lives, too.

Life does not always seem fair. It is not always easy to unerstand why kids get sick or they die. I know the first thought is to blame God. I cant imagine thanking him for taking a child. It's one of thosse many things i jsut have to accept that HIS will did not match mine this time.

My sucky week was a speeding ticket. That's so mild compared to yours. We need but look around us and we will find somebody who had a worse week. There's always gratitude when i look for it. There is at least a lesson to learn. (and i learned that from YOU!)

{{{{{morey}}}}}}}

LIN

[knothead]

Man, oh man, did this really and truly touch me today of all days!!!!!!!!!

Before I read this & took it all in, I felt like everything was coming down me at once: from my spouse to my parents to my closest friends. Everyone seemed at least a little grumpy towards me (or, actually, that was my *perception*). I had to start my day over at least twice in one day.

But, what I had been going is probably nothing compared to your present trials, IMO. It has to be tough to lose a child that is close for whatever reason. And then to learn that another person, although older in years, may likely lose his/her life makes it doubly tough.

"Absolutely nothing happens by accident in G-ds world," I have been told. But sometimes, I do wonder about that.

Whatever the case, my prayers are with you.

[Tiger]

Great Posts'

I can still remember something which occured in the early 60s while I was in the throes of my alcoholic drinking. Even in my mixed-up mind at the time I realized how profound this statement was:

Pope John was dying and the whole world was upset.
He stated "It is as natural to die as it is to be born"

In the "grand scheme of life" how true this is!

We don't have to like it but, having no other choice, we must accept it!.....as hard as it is.

In the grand scheme of things I don't know why tragedies happen.......but......God Knows!......and.....I found out I'm not God!

Tiger

[mender1]

We are spiritual beings having a human experience,
it is a part of to end this part of our journey with the death of this physical body.
Our true essence continues when this happens and we have grown as spiritual beings.


Christians,
Christ said we are to cry at birth and rejoice at death,

All believe we will continue on in some form or another except athiest .
They think we just happened and it will end at death and this life is meaningless
I can not see it as I look out my window and watch the river flow by.
To stand in a forrest alone and look up at the trees
to see a new born child
or the wisdom of someone who has lived a 100 years,
it all could not of just happened.
There is a force some where holding this all together.

Peace and Love
Owen

[Misty]

Dear Owen----Way to bottom line things!!! I love how your explanation is spiritual but very practical too!!! Thanks so much for the post. I really appreciated
reading it. Sincere Thanks---Misty