Topic of the Week: Old Tapes

[caressa]

Sometimes they are ingrained and I have trouble recognizing them for what they are. Other times they are glaringly apparent and I need to turn them over, surrender them to my Higher Power, and ask for help.

Today's Reminder:

Today I'm going to pay close attention to what I tell myself. If necessary, I'll stop in mid-thought, start over, and replace negative illusions with positive truths.

- Courage to Change

"What we teach ourselves with our thoughts and attitudes is up to us."

...In All Our Affairs (Al-Anon)

So many of those thoughts are old tapes. I have to erase them and make new ones.

[caressa]

All we are asked to do is try. So many times in my past, I was told "If you were not so stupid...." Who do you think you are? Do you really think your opinion matters?"

When asked to do something, I had self doubt. I didn't think I could do or capable of doing. So in many instances, I just didn't try. I was blocked by my own insecurities and fear. I had tunnel vision, incapable of looking at the whole picture, often because of fear.

Thanks to the program, I learned to change that fear into faith. I let go of old tapes and made new ones. I became the little engine that could!

I came to realize that I didn't have to do it alone. We can do what I can't do by myself. Thinking that I can, only led me back to where I was when I came into recovery. Big ego, too much pride, which turned out to be false.

Through my Higher Power, all things are possible.

[caressa]

Was reading on the site and found this old post:

eor.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=ACOA&action=display&thread=1684

Hugs to all!