Post by caressa on Jun 7, 2011 13:09:20 GMT -5
My doctor was my supplier for years. Had me on a medication that he kept renewing which the specialist told me in recovery, that if it doesn't work in 5 months, it will never work.
When I went to Relapse Prevention, he told them I needed the medicaiton I was on because of my migraines and anxiety disorder. He said, "I think you have what they call that 'Roving Rheumatism" with no explainations and I thought he was making fun of me. I was hurting and no one knew why. Relapse Prevention sent me home and told me I didn't have a problem because he said, "It is not my fault that she occasionally takes too many." I figured if one didn't work, more would be better. I didn't take them by the handful. If something didn't work in a certain time period, I would take another one. All was accompanied by Gravol to give everything a boost and a jump start.
My doctor wanted me to go there instead of into a recovery house, so when they rejected me, my social worker got my into a place called Mary Ellis House. I told a counselor, "This is my nerve pill, Bromazapine 18 mg.." She said, "This is a very STRONG tranquilizer." It is not the same thing. I was prescribed 3 a day along with Carbamazopine which has a street name of Tegrital. I figure if it has a street name it can't be good. That is the drug that my doctor had me on for 5 years. I took one and phoned the specialist, "Am I suppose to feel like I am walking 10" off the floor." He said, "No, take a half pill until you are use to them." I was prescribed 3 a day.
These and Tyenol 3s helped to make me a walking zombie and in the end, I was starting to drink again. I got sick and tired of being tired and sick. Didn't have much hope until I walked into the doors of recovery, then I found some answers. Pills were like dried up alcohol for me. I had more identification with them when I heard alcoholics in AA speaking than I did when I compared my own drinking history. I was able to learn to identify, and I used all for the same reason, the drugs and alcohol were but a symptom of my disease.
When I went to Relapse Prevention, he told them I needed the medicaiton I was on because of my migraines and anxiety disorder. He said, "I think you have what they call that 'Roving Rheumatism" with no explainations and I thought he was making fun of me. I was hurting and no one knew why. Relapse Prevention sent me home and told me I didn't have a problem because he said, "It is not my fault that she occasionally takes too many." I figured if one didn't work, more would be better. I didn't take them by the handful. If something didn't work in a certain time period, I would take another one. All was accompanied by Gravol to give everything a boost and a jump start.
My doctor wanted me to go there instead of into a recovery house, so when they rejected me, my social worker got my into a place called Mary Ellis House. I told a counselor, "This is my nerve pill, Bromazapine 18 mg.." She said, "This is a very STRONG tranquilizer." It is not the same thing. I was prescribed 3 a day along with Carbamazopine which has a street name of Tegrital. I figure if it has a street name it can't be good. That is the drug that my doctor had me on for 5 years. I took one and phoned the specialist, "Am I suppose to feel like I am walking 10" off the floor." He said, "No, take a half pill until you are use to them." I was prescribed 3 a day.
These and Tyenol 3s helped to make me a walking zombie and in the end, I was starting to drink again. I got sick and tired of being tired and sick. Didn't have much hope until I walked into the doors of recovery, then I found some answers. Pills were like dried up alcohol for me. I had more identification with them when I heard alcoholics in AA speaking than I did when I compared my own drinking history. I was able to learn to identify, and I used all for the same reason, the drugs and alcohol were but a symptom of my disease.
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.