Choices

[SunnyGirl]

"God loves you and He knows all the secrets of your
heart...you've allowed the past to come between you
and God. Turn the past over to God. He's strong enough
to take it. And give Him your future, too....He'll make
you strong enough to live it." - - unknown

I ran across the quote above and it really reminded me
of all the fears and memories that we have tucked into
the deep dark parts of our heart....

Recovery has reminded me that I do have choices and I
don't have to stay stuck in "never never land"... Recovery
has allowed me to find a closer more personal relationship
with my Higher Power. HE is a loving God and never wants
to see me hurting, but sometimes we need to feel the pain
to learn the lesson.

I always have a choice about how to respond to and deal
with my fears. I can cave into it, struggle with it, accept it,
or work around it. I always have a choice, a choice I can make
again and again.... or if I decide I'm not pleased with my choice
I may change my mind again. My choices don't always work
out the way I'd hoped but we can always reassess and find
the best path we need. My Higher Power is a kind and loving
God.... HE's a good listener and will show me the way if I
will only ask!

Today I find it's always better for me to stay in today....
My biggest goal, my sole concern is to make today as good
as it possibly can be. It's my day to do with what I will,
I can take care of things that need to be done, or I can
opt to watch my soap opera.... It's a gift, twenty four hours
to spend as I will! If I am smart, I won't waste one precious
moment of it worrying about the yesterdays! I can learn the
lesson and move on, guilt free and ready to start anew.
Never, never forget, God is just a prayer away.....

Peace on the journey, SunnyGirl

[caressa]

Always liked this topic. It was a real spiritual awakening for me to find out that, I did have a choice. I have a choice whether I have a good day or a bad one. I can be sad or happy, I have freedom of choice.

When I see something that makes me sad, I am allowed to stay in that feeling. Before I would have used something or someone to make the feeling go away because I didn't like it. I have a right to be sad if circumstances warrent it.

I am reminded that this is a program of grieving. The loss of our best friend, our drug of choice. Often that choice was other people, food, work, shopping, and anything other than what our parents used. In my case food and alcohol. I eventually decided if you can't beat them, join them, and chose to be my father's drinking partner as long as he allowed me to drink his booze.

My old tapes said I couldn't, that I was stupid. The old tapes I told myself were, "You are ugly, you are nothing, what is the use?" In recovery, we learned to make new tapes. I have a choice as to whether I play the old tape or push the button that plays the new one.

[majestyjo]

"God loves you and He knows all the secrets of your heart...you've allowed the past to come between you and God. Turn the past over to God. He's strong enough to take it. And give Him your future, too....He'll make you strong enough to live it." - - unknown

This reminds me of the hymn, "How Big is God?"

(Stuart Hamblen)
(God's small enough to live within my heart)
Though men may strive to go beyond the reach of space
To crawl beyond the distant shining stars
This world's a room so small within my Master's house
The open sky's but a portion of his yard.

How big is God, how big and wide is His domain
To try to tell these lips can only start
He's big enough to rule his mighty universe
Yet small enough to live within my heart.

(As winter chill may cause the tiny seed to fall)
To lie asleep till waked by summer's rain
The heart grown cold will warm and trod with life anew
The Master's touch will bring the glow again.

How big is God, how big and wide is His domain
To try to tell these lips can only start
He's big enough to rule his mighty universe
Yet small enough to live within my heart.
(God's small enough to live within my heart...)