Another Saturday, another Speakers Meeting

[~graced~]

Wanna hear G-d laugh--tell Him your plans.

G-d's got a funny sense of humour, I tell ya.....working with folks like me, I think it's required.
And then there's the folks that He sets ME up to be working with.
*shaking head*
It's like becoming a parent to teenagers--when you finally 'get' your parents warning of "wait til you have children of your own!".
Very funny, Big Fella....

I was a 'difficult' person to manage when I was sobering up.
(please note that I've become MUCH more willing and easy to work with....LOL..just don't ask around to find out if that's true! LOL)
I pulled a whole lot of crap trying to get rid of the oldfart wisepersoninmylife who was put 'in charge' of me.
I was hard pressed to follow directions to begin with......frankly, I still colour outside the lines and run with scissors.
I find some sense of pride in remaining 'difficult'.....I like living outside that box--there's no doubt about it.
Someday I might actually LET myself look as willing as I genuinely am?


So I got asked to be the speaker at a meeting--speaking at some professional do-dah makes me anxious, but speaking to a bunch of drunks is just another meeting.
I'm not there to impress anyone with my 'infinite wisdom and knowledge' *rolling eyes*, I'm there to remind myself what it was like, what happened and what it's like now. Heaven help me if I ever forget what it was like, ya know?!
Apparently I'm an 'entertaining' speaker.......I pulled some bonehead stunts when I was out practicing for 'drunk of the year'. I know I say what's true about the price others around me paid for my 'good times'. I can still get a tad emotional when I'm taking about the lives I affected. There was a huge price others paid for loving me.

Do I remember what I talked?
Nope. LOL
I rarely do.
I ask G-d to help me bring the message to those who are still suffering--and away I go. Oddly enough I almost always remember the last five minutes of the talk. It's like there's some internal alert system that's letting me know my hour is up. LOL

And I walked away with a new person to work with....two in fact.
I hear tell they're JUST like me.
Oppositional, mouthy and belligerant.....'difficult to work with'. Or so I'm told by folks who've tried to work with 'em. LOL A couple of them tried to 'warn me' before I said "I'd be honoured!"
Why they'd feel a need to do that--I don't know.
I suppose someone warned that oldfart wisepersoninmylife about ME.
He didn't care--neither do I.

I get to work with others and it's a priviledge.
It keeps me working what works.
And it gives me a chance to give back what was so freely given to me.
That's how it works, eh?

[MrDuck]

Gee Morey. You have been sober so long I think the honesty is setting in haha. As I sat here reading this I was thinking how many at AA just plain don't like me at first. Sometimes it don't change. I don't even get suport from the old timers. A new gal a while back told some one, "I don't like that guy." The old timer that him and I have been bumming heads for over 20 years told her, " That's ok. I don't like him evern." Now how is that for support. And now they have nicknameimers d me Mr Focker. Much nicer than what they use to call me. Isn't it just neat and wonderful how the program works. And you know what? It isn't about if someone likes me or not. It is about getting and maintaining a life of soberity.

Have a great day.

Good to see you on the boards again TURTLE.

Ron ( aka the DUCK)

[caressa222]

Can identify so much with you. If I depended on the Fellowships I would not be clean and sober.

Gossip almost drive me away years ago. I think most people don't want to hear what I have to say. I see it as their own denial. I call it as I see it. Sometimes they don't ask for my 2 cents worth, but they often get it anyway no charge.

Hate to think of someone dying without hearing that there is another option. Life.