Thursday's Chip - Trusting/Suspicious

[caressa]

On the whole, I am a very trusting person. Probably because I trusted too easy, that I got hurt often. I set myself up, wanting to believe the best in people, instead of looking for the bad, I try to see and find the good.

Once I have been knocked down a time or two, I tend to be a little more suspicious of the person's motives and intent.

I picked this today because I am anxiously awaiting my doctor's appoointment next Tuesday. His office is closed Friday and Monday, so I have to wait, which is something I don't do well at the best of times.

I suspect he didn't have the letter when I went in to see him after I came home from the hospital. The receptionist said that he wanted to discuss the letter with me. My mind has been active and thinking many things, so I have to take time and quiet it and be still in the moment.

I ended up getting another volunteer to work for me this afternoon. If I am feeling better, I will work for her tomorrow. In too much pain to sit at the computer for 3 hours. Heading back to my bed. I didn't trust myself to be patient and tolerant of others and thought I might fall asleep on watch.

[majestyjo]

Through the program, learning to trust the process, I revised my understanding of God, and through Him, I was able to trust myself. Through that self-trust, I learned to trust others. It also allowed me to make a decision as to who would be a part of my life and who will not be there, by setting boundaries and learning to detach.

Detachment doesn't mean we don't love, we detach because we do love. This is a spiritual program. I need to feed the Spirit, and in order to do that, I can't isolate, I need to connect with others, and in order to do that, I have to learn to trust.