Post by caressa on Oct 22, 2011 3:18:45 GMT -5
The bigger my head. The bigger the target. Anonymous
- AlkieSpeaks.
When I read this earlier to my friend, we had a chuckle because of an incident I had shared with her earlier.
I was playing the game Word Mojo Gold from Yahoo and every once in a while, I will bring it out to play instead of Bejeweled2, my official addiction. I like to think of it as my healthy one, but once in a while the old thinking comes in and I find myself getting irritated, beating myself up, and getting annoyed at interruptions.
So I was trying to be very careful because of my eye and hand, and was getting a little frustrated because I wasn't getting very good scores. I use to get scores of over 20,000 and wasn't even making it to 10,000. Oh woe is me! So I was playing away and coming along to the 7,000 mark and I managed to change a word and use all my letters for a 50 pt. bonus. I spent so much time being pleased with myself, that I didn't watch the time, the time ran out and I didn't make my quota.
My God can show me these little lesson in the smallest ways. The disease is never far away. It may not have been alcohol, but it all leads to the same soul sickness and stinking thinking.
EGO - Easing God Out. Not giving Him the credit. Not acknowledging that what I have is because of Him, not of my own brilliance and manipulating mind.
Letting go of self. It helps to relax and let cares go before I go to bed. But when I get caught up in what is a game, and start taking it seriously, the game takes over and it is no longer a restful thing but something that keeps the mind busy, often on unhealthy thoughts.
Just for todoay, I will acknowledge that I am not in control. I need to surrender my thoughts and actions to my Higher Power and allow Him to guide me each day.
- AlkieSpeaks.
When I read this earlier to my friend, we had a chuckle because of an incident I had shared with her earlier.
I was playing the game Word Mojo Gold from Yahoo and every once in a while, I will bring it out to play instead of Bejeweled2, my official addiction. I like to think of it as my healthy one, but once in a while the old thinking comes in and I find myself getting irritated, beating myself up, and getting annoyed at interruptions.
So I was trying to be very careful because of my eye and hand, and was getting a little frustrated because I wasn't getting very good scores. I use to get scores of over 20,000 and wasn't even making it to 10,000. Oh woe is me! So I was playing away and coming along to the 7,000 mark and I managed to change a word and use all my letters for a 50 pt. bonus. I spent so much time being pleased with myself, that I didn't watch the time, the time ran out and I didn't make my quota.
My God can show me these little lesson in the smallest ways. The disease is never far away. It may not have been alcohol, but it all leads to the same soul sickness and stinking thinking.
EGO - Easing God Out. Not giving Him the credit. Not acknowledging that what I have is because of Him, not of my own brilliance and manipulating mind.
Letting go of self. It helps to relax and let cares go before I go to bed. But when I get caught up in what is a game, and start taking it seriously, the game takes over and it is no longer a restful thing but something that keeps the mind busy, often on unhealthy thoughts.
Just for todoay, I will acknowledge that I am not in control. I need to surrender my thoughts and actions to my Higher Power and allow Him to guide me each day.
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