Post by justjo on Dec 16, 2011 18:44:24 GMT -5
Hour To Hour - Book - Quote
Although loving and being loved is an important aspect of balance in our lives--it is never the solution to drinking and other drug taking. We sometimes focus on the strong emotion of love rather than face taking each step at a time, one hour at a time.
Creator, as I understand You, let me feel the love of others but not confuse it as the means of recovery in place of loving myself.
Loving myself was not something that happened for a long time before and after recovery. Didn't think I was loveable because my husband had run around on me, and when I didn't get the attention I thought I needed or deserved, it made me more insecure and unworthy.
I was looking for love in all the wrong places. I couldn't love me so I would go to whoever was in my life at the moment. Pretty soon there was just me, and I felt no love at all.
Through getting to know my Higher Power, to know His Love was unconditional, I was able to learn to Love myself as I got to know me and what I truly needed and wanted in my life. I was no longer looking outside of myself for something to make me feel better. It was that lack of love feeling, that made me feel so lonely and alone, which took me back to my pills and alcohol.
Although loving and being loved is an important aspect of balance in our lives--it is never the solution to drinking and other drug taking. We sometimes focus on the strong emotion of love rather than face taking each step at a time, one hour at a time.
Creator, as I understand You, let me feel the love of others but not confuse it as the means of recovery in place of loving myself.
Loving myself was not something that happened for a long time before and after recovery. Didn't think I was loveable because my husband had run around on me, and when I didn't get the attention I thought I needed or deserved, it made me more insecure and unworthy.
I was looking for love in all the wrong places. I couldn't love me so I would go to whoever was in my life at the moment. Pretty soon there was just me, and I felt no love at all.
Through getting to know my Higher Power, to know His Love was unconditional, I was able to learn to Love myself as I got to know me and what I truly needed and wanted in my life. I was no longer looking outside of myself for something to make me feel better. It was that lack of love feeling, that made me feel so lonely and alone, which took me back to my pills and alcohol.
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