Self Will Run Riot

[caressa]

Alkiespeaks:

When I slide over from being 'On the Program' to 'Self Will Run Riot' it's seamless. There's no bump, no warning, I'm just there. That's why I need Step 1O. - Trip S.

Never heard this concept before. I was told, whenever I felt comfortable, it was time to move on or take a look at where I was because I might be in an old behavior that no longer serves me in recovery.

I always need Step 10, the biggest lesson I learned was to work it all day long, not just morning and night. It saved me a lot of detours and helped me over a lot of roadblocks.

Will have to give this more thought. I feel that I am in God's will when I turn my day over each morning. When I go with the flow, things unfold as they should. If I fight it and debate as to what I should do or not do, there is a good chance, I am say, "I hear you but I am not willing to do that right now, later!" A sure sign for me, is to go downtown and not see one person I know when I am there. I is a sure sign and indicator, that I am running away from home, and I should have stayed home and did the dishes or the laundry.

It doesn't have to be recovery people, but when it is, it is bonus!

[BW]

'On the Program' ...that phrase caught my eye for some reason....I don't mean to play the game of semantics but I think I'd rather be "IN" the program. If I am just "ON" it there is a more likely chance I might fall off...but if I am in the middle of the wagon there is a good chance I'm gonna stay in the thick of things. I am gonna get involved and be of service and stay that way.

[caressa]

Good point BW, In means to be involved. On can mean your there, but a lot depends on how you are involved as to whether you are sober or whether you are looking for sobriety.

I was told to bring the body and the mind will follow. It was a long process. My eyes were on the program, at first I wasn't even sure what the program was. I just kept coming back.

[caressa222]

Have heard a couple of long-timers stressing how much we need to find our own program. I can only be in my program, working it one day at a time. If I am on a program, that gives me an option to quit, change my mind, get new direction, involve other things or ignore the parts I don't like.  That does sound like self-will run riot.

I was told to find what worked for me.  I found out I was a many faceted woman, who need many things in order to recover.  It wasn't just about alcohol and prescription drugs.  It a lot about why I used them in the first place.  I had an eating disorder, I wanted to get rich quick and looked for that winning ticket.  So much of me was gung ho! get out of my way, I am coming through.

[majestyjo]

You might get drunk working my program, find your own. One that works. Since 1991 I have gone to many fellowships, but the common denominator is the 12 Steps.