Post by caressa on Mar 9, 2012 21:06:26 GMT -5
I'd drink to get relaxed but by the time I got relaxed enough I was unconscious - Dave.
- Alkiespeaks
Haven't been feeling well enough to do look at these quotes, and I am the one who is the loser as a result of it. I use these little quotes to jump start my day. They are a healthy tool in today.
Alcohol was an unhealthy tool, although I seldom was unconscious, I was a functioning drunk, I generally ended up not giving a darn. It was more my mind instead of my body that became lax.
I had friend along with my dad and my ex-husband who lost the use of their legs and because I could walk a straight line, I didn't think I had a problem. The reality was, I had quite often drank as much if not more than they did.
I used to gain confidence. I used what ever I needed to take me out of myself and the focus off me. I used to stuff the feelings and unwanted looks at reality. I didn't want to eat, so I picked up a cigarette. I didn't want to deal with reality, so I used pills to go to sleep, which were like dried up alcohol. I used my books and my computer to escape into nothingness, often because I didn't want to be alone. I had to turn both over to my HP, and although both are not too harmful, they all lead to the same soul sickness.
In today, when I turn my day over to my Higher Power, He utilizes the people, places and things, to show me a new way to live clean and sober.
- Alkiespeaks
Haven't been feeling well enough to do look at these quotes, and I am the one who is the loser as a result of it. I use these little quotes to jump start my day. They are a healthy tool in today.
Alcohol was an unhealthy tool, although I seldom was unconscious, I was a functioning drunk, I generally ended up not giving a darn. It was more my mind instead of my body that became lax.
I had friend along with my dad and my ex-husband who lost the use of their legs and because I could walk a straight line, I didn't think I had a problem. The reality was, I had quite often drank as much if not more than they did.
I used to gain confidence. I used what ever I needed to take me out of myself and the focus off me. I used to stuff the feelings and unwanted looks at reality. I didn't want to eat, so I picked up a cigarette. I didn't want to deal with reality, so I used pills to go to sleep, which were like dried up alcohol. I used my books and my computer to escape into nothingness, often because I didn't want to be alone. I had to turn both over to my HP, and although both are not too harmful, they all lead to the same soul sickness.
In today, when I turn my day over to my Higher Power, He utilizes the people, places and things, to show me a new way to live clean and sober.
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