Topic - Change

[SunnyGirl]

Nar-Anon Meeting Tonight !

Time: 9pm eastern ~ 8pm central ~ 6pm pacific

Moderator: Sunnygirl

Tonights Topic: Change

I am looking forward to tonight's topic, "Change"
I have always been slow to change, but today
I am willing to make changes in my life. I hope
you will join us tonight for the meeting, I look
forward to hearing your shares.


Please join us tonight and share your, experience,
strength and hope.........

Hugs, Sunnygirl

[usdupn02]

Long, tiring day at work so doubt if I stay up for the meeting. However, it is such a good topic I want to share a bit. I was just commenting in my journal that it feels very strange to not be really angry and upset all the time and to actually be attempting to communicate in a straight-forward manner instead of dancing around the truth. I've been working step four and discovering (admitting) to several nasty traits that I have. In the middle of this self-discovery, HP has returned a person to the scene that I have been struggling with forgiving. As a matter of fact, hate would not be to strong a word for how I feel (felt) for this person. Strangely enough, after the initial over-reaction which was how I always reacted, I have really calmed down and started accepting some things. I think that this sense of calm is generated from working this program, turning over more and more to my HP, and accepting "thy" will not "my" will. This is a big change for me and it does feel very weird. I keep thinking I should be throwing tantrums and lecturing and certainly not be so accepting but I just can't work that up. I hope that makes sense. Basically what I am saying is I do feel kind of lost not doing what I normally do but it is a good change.

I know that at any moment the old habits could kick in. As a matter of fact, yesterday was a day of slipping up on my part. The change is, I realized I was slipping into old habits, and took steps to stop.

I think I like this change.

Hope you all have a good meeting...Janet

[Caressa2]

Thank you for sharing Janet. It was a good meeting. And change is a good topic, because for me recovery is about change. If I don't change I don't have recovery.

Recovery is about falling down and picking yourself up. It is about trying, it is about trying and falling on your btm and getting up and dusting yourself off, and trying again.

Often it is two steps forward and one back, or one step forward and three back, but as long as we are in motion and we are doing, we are healing and generally we are the last ones to notice the changes.

I remember changing my hair colour, my ear rings, my home group, my sponsors, but it was all external stuff. Recovery is about me and change me, my attitudes, my actions and my thoughts.

I have developed defects of character in recovery that I don't remember having when I was using. I am so glad that this is a one day at a time program. It is a good thing my HP has a sense of humor, because He has to put up with me. I often say, "God is sitting up there on his big throne in the sky, shaking His Head and saying, 'Tisk, tisk! Don't tell me we are going to go through this again, didn't she learn her lesson the last time!'" The awesome thing is that He still loves me and He never gives up on me. It is me who gives up on me and Me that goes away!"

[admin]

( ( ( ( Janet ) ) ) )

Thank you for sharing....

You were missed at the meeting last night, but
it's equally important that you get your rest.

.....well said, Caressa

I need to remember, that not all change is going
to affect me in a negative way. In fact, the majority
of the changes that take place in my life, lead me
to even greater happiness.

Life is a series of lessons, each one we learn from,
we are then allowed to move forward and learn
the next. I am blessed to have learned how to
change and move forward in my life. Some days
I move slower than others, but it's all progress.....

Peace on the journey, SG

[majestyjo]

Recovery is about change. If you don't change old patterns, habits, behaviors, and ways of life we will set ourselves up for relapse