What is peeping

[learning]

Hi there,

My hubby has been shooting coke for a couple of months and at night thinks people are at the window.

I look at the CA website and they talk about crack addicts doing this.

Do coke addicts do this to?


Learning

[dg]

Hi Learning,
First of all, Welcome to EOR.
The answer to your question, yes coke addicts do this, as well as crack addicts, and methaphamine addicts.
Its called paranoia. It usually happens when they are using drugs, and thinks that "people are following them" or "watching them" or hear voices. Among other things.
Smoking or snorting or shooting these drugs can effect the levels of certain neurotransmitters of the brain that effects psychotic delusions... like that out to get me syndrome.
I hope this answers your question.
keep coming back.

[learning]

Thanks, it does help...

He said he has been hallucinating this week so fits together...

Learning

[ChrisK]

I'll be thinking about you. Glad my life isn't headed down that road anymore. There is a better life. It's a good life 1 w/o the drugs and the booze. I hope you can get your husband to seek help if, he can't stop on his own. We all care about you in here.
Chris

[~graced~]

(((((((((Learning))))))))))

As one who used to 'free base' and inject cocaine, I lived the paranoia that came with the experience. The best description to explain the experience prior to the paranoia is a whole body orgasm. The 'thrill' that comes is horrendously powerful. It was a tough one to give up. Feeling the 'real world' feelings wasn't something I wanted to do in the first place. Giving up that all over, intense 'feel good' wasn't something I willingly decided I'd do. Interventions were done--and I'm clean today.

Not fun living with that real fear that there are people watching in the window. I used to catch glimpses of people who'd pass by mirrors or be reflected in the glass of windows--non existant of course, but horrifying just the same. You couldn't have convinced me that they weren't in the room. I'd tear open closets, lock doors and close and lock windows--and sit in terror of why someone would be in the apartment.

Not a fun thing to live. Undoubtedly not a fun thing to live with.
People tried to assure me no one was in the apartment. They stayed with me until I dismissed them, generally angrily, ready to get that 'feel' again....believing it to be the only escape from the terror.
It was a vicious circle.
I'm certain it was a helpless feeling for the people around me to watch me over and over again.

I'm glad you're here. It's tough to understand the 'why' in it all.....tougher still to watch people we love destroying themselves, becoming prisoner to the addiction.
I watched my son fall prey to it.
He's currently incarcerated because of his choices.
He refused the help offered him over and over again.
Not unlike me, he was more than willing to do what seemed to be the only thing that gave him some reprieve from the fearful and angry relationship between him and the world at large.
Stick around.....you don't have to go through any of this alone.

[learning]

Grace,

Thank you for explaining this to me. Since, thank God, I never shot the stuff and only tried in once and knew - being a control freek (hence need to be in Naraon :>)
that I wouldn't have control since it was so powerful.

See you around.

Learning

[~graced~]

((((((((((Learning)))))))))))

You just keep coming back....you're very, very welcome here.

*hugs*

[thebeemstress]

Hey, Learning,

Interesting that you mention being a control freak. I think we (control freaks) tend to gravitate towards people who are out of control in some way, as if we are drawn to that need for organization and help. Just a thought - I'm sure not a new one.

thebeemstress

[caressa222]

Control is one of those C words thstg can corrode the soul.

I am powerless and it wasn't until I surrendered to the program, that I was powered to stay clear on a day at a time.