When will it leave?

[mender1]

I find myself standing at the cupboard and looking at the nitequil,
I fell sick and running a fever
I know it has 10% alcohol
My mind tell's me it is medicine
My body tells me it need's it

My spirit tell's me I will live without it
The obsession will come and go but it will never leave.
Thank goodness my spirit can reason with me today.

[dg]

Hi Owen,
I hope by now you are feeling better.
I remember the time of my quitting drugs, I faced alot of things that came my way that was similar to your facing, to have to take a drug that could cause a relaspe. Many times I have chosen the later not to take a certain drug because of fear of my going back to using pills again. It has been a long time since I quit abusing pills and to this day I still question myself on certain things regarding to my fear of my relaspse. It never goes away completely, but I know in my heart and frame of mind I am alot stronger than ever that I will never chose that road again. You will in time feel that way, and with each day of soberity is a stronger person within you in maintaining it.
Would like to give you a suggestion on something tho, that there are medications out there that doesn't contain alchol in it, as well as other things that have alchol base in it.
Isn't is amazing how the world of medicine that HAS to have alchol in something or other habit forming things just to make it work.
anyhow, get better.. ODAT.

[caressa]

So many products on the market have things that contain narcotics or has a substance which is a trigger for us. Neo Citrin being one, which shows no content that is harmful but have known people to relapse because of it and/or get stoned on it.

Anything can be addictive for an addict, at least for this one. Anything that is obsessive, compulsive and I allow to come between me and my God, leads to the soul sickness of active addiction.