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Post by majestyjo on Sept 19, 2015 17:01:33 GMT -5
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 6, 2015 16:06:11 GMT -5
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 17, 2015 19:45:33 GMT -5
Didn't do well with this today, I slept the day away. I talked to my friend and my son who called me, and each time, I found myself going back to bed. I was only up for the 2 1/2 hours it took me to have lunch and post on the site. Woke up with a head ache. My son came by and cooked dinner, left over meatloaf, gravy, he had fries and I had sweet potatoes, and french cut green beans.
Hope to do some posting and catch up on my daily recorded programs Rachel Ray, The Chew, The Talk and Ellen DeGeneres. I had a bad headache and did a meditation and took an extra-strength program, which is a daily medication I take for my arthritis.
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 24, 2015 6:30:40 GMT -5
Just For Today September 28 Hope “Gradually as we become more God-centered than self centered, our despair turns to hope.” Basic Text, p.92
As using addicts, despair was our relentless companion. It colored our every waking moment. Despair was born of our experience in active addiction: No matter what measures we tried to make our lives better, we slid ever deeper into misery. Attempts we made to control our lives frequently met with failure. In a sense, our First Step admission of powerlessness was an acknowledgment of despair.
Steps Two and Three lead us gradually out of that despair and into new hope, the companion of the recovering addict. Having accepted that so many of our efforts to change have failed, we come to believe that there is a Power greater than ourselves. We believe this Power can – and will – help us. We practice the Second and Third Steps as an affirmation of our hope for a better life, turning to this Power for guidance. As we come to rely more and more on a Higher Power for the management of our day – to – day life, the despair arising from our long experiment with self-sufficiency disappears.
Just for today: I will reaffirm my Third Step decision. I know that, with a Higher Power in my life, there is hope.
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Post by majestyjo on Dec 14, 2015 1:58:02 GMT -5
It is so important for me to remember that the 12 Step program is applicable to my mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical aspects of my disease. My disease is four-fold.
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Post by majestyjo on Dec 15, 2015 6:49:25 GMT -5
This is why I come to the site and share.
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Post by majestyjo on Dec 18, 2015 23:50:48 GMT -5
Daily Recovery Readings – November 18, 2013 Today, I am listening to The Gaither Gospel Hour, it is a rerun and called Joy to the World and I think it was recorded in 1980s by the hair styles. I am so glad that the news is still good in today. I am grateful for a program that filled me with hope and that I kept coming back. It has been a great journey, with it hills and valleys, but each day was a lesson learned, and as long as I stayed clean, it did get better. I didn't stop being an addict, I just learned tools and new behaviours and practices to help me, not pick up in today. The program is one day at a time. Christmas is just another 24 hours. Christmas is a week away, yet we need to stay in today. Just for today, I chose not to use.
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Post by majestyjo on Dec 20, 2015 13:43:34 GMT -5
I remember a woman in early recovery, I would had less than two years clean and sober and she said, "How can you be so happy on so little." Since my marriage ended I had been Mother's Allowance, and after I wasn't able to work because of my addiction, I was on Welfare. My social worker got me on Ontario Disability, which made living a little easier. I had that envy and low self-esteem. As it says, you have fill the void with spiritual things, and then the ache and pain goes away. Gratitude goes a long way. As my sponsor said to me, "If you got one hand in the hand of a newcomer and the other hand in the Hand of your Higher Power, you don't have any hands left to pick up." It worked for me. That is how I lost three pounds when I quit smoking, instead of gaining. I didn't look to other substances, I went to NA and collected my key tags and worked the program. I not only had to clean myself, but my surroundings and certain friends and my family from my life, until such a time, as I could bring them back in my life, when I could stand firm and learned how to deal with those outside issues. I went to a self-esteem program, which was suggested by my social worker that got me into the recovery house. I went about 4 times, not sure now, a long time ago, and I kept thinking, "People, get a 12 Step Program." I had been where they were and didn't want to get pulled down by all the negativity. The same thing happened when I went for anger management. The teacher said, "We value your input and help." I said, "I am not here to do your job." I am not getting what I need here, I will go back to working the 12 Steps.
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Post by majestyjo on Dec 26, 2015 18:53:05 GMT -5
For many years, I took on what wasn't mine. As my health issues grew, I had to bow out of a lot of things and accept things as they were. Doing more than what I could physically do, made my a martyr and a victim, and don't want to go there in today.
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Post by majestyjo on Dec 28, 2015 2:52:20 GMT -5
Depression is part of grief and a part of healing when we come into recovery. The loss of our drug(s) of choice which have left an big void in our world and we can no longer reach for it to cope with life.
There is clinical depression that needs medication to bring our life into balance, but normal depression doesn't need a pill to take it away if you apply the 12 Steps and apply the program as a way of life. They tried to put me on an anti-depressant for years, but I found that for me, they were mind altering and prevented them from being me. I have been on so many I lost count. I am feeling guilty about taking the Lyrica that my doctor prescribed, and I like sleeping and not having pain, but don't like the number it does on my head and I seem to be getting more and more headaches and a loss of mental thought. I have trouble getting the words out to say what I mean. I am really considering going back to the pain and dealing with it, instead of not feeling mentally capable. :sad:
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Post by majestyjo on Jan 10, 2016 5:46:10 GMT -5
January 10
Gratitude
"I'm very grateful to have come to believe."
IP No. 21, "The Loner"
Belief in a Higher Power can make all the difference when the going gets tough! When things don't go our way in recovery, our sponsor may direct us to make a "gratitude list." When we do, we should include our faith in a Power greater than ourselves on the list. One of the greatest gifts we receive from the Twelve Steps is our belief in a God of our own understanding.
The Twelve Steps gently lead us toward a spiritual awakening. Just as our addiction progressed, so does our spiritual life develop in the course of working the program of Narcotics Anonymous. The steps are our path to a relationship with a God of our understanding. This Higher Power gives us strength when our road gets rough.
Are we grateful for our deepening relationship with a Higher Power? Do we remember to thank God for each day clean, no matter what has happened that day? Do we remember that, no matter how deep our despair or how great our joy, the God of our understanding is with us?
Our recovery is a gift, a gift that we sometimes take for granted. Each day we stay clean, we can rejoice in our Higher Power's care.
Just for today: I am grateful for my relationship with a Higher Power that cares for me.
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Post by majestyjo on Jan 23, 2016 12:48:21 GMT -5
Just For Today January 23 Serenity Check
“Lack of daily maintenance can show up in many ways.” Basic Text p. 91
Ever had a perfect stranger remark about how great the weather was, only to reply “It stinks”? When this happens, we are probably suffering from a lack of daily maintenance in our program.
In recovery, life can get pretty hectic. Maybe those added responsibilities at work have got you hopping. Maybe you haven’t been to a meeting for awhile. Perhaps you’ve been too busy to meditate, or haven’t been eating regularly or sleeping well. Whatever the reason, your serenity is slipping.
When this happens, it is crucial that we take action. We can’t afford to let one “bad day”; complete with a bad attitude, slip into two days, four days, or a week. Our recovery depends on our daily maintenance program. No matter what is happening in our lives, we can’t afford to neglect the principles that have saved our lives.
There are many ways to recover our serenity. We can go to a meeting, phone our sponsor, meet another recovering addict for lunch, or try to carry the message to a newcomer. We can pray. We can take a moment to ask ourselves what simple things we haven’t been doing. When our attitudes head downhill, we can avert a crash with simple solutions.
Just for today: I will examine the maintenance of my daily program of recovery.
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Post by majestyjo on Jan 30, 2016 21:38:56 GMT -5
The 5th Tradition gave me a purpose for living. It is why I come on this site and share because I can't always go out and connect with others.
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 2, 2016 14:28:25 GMT -5
I went to an AA meeting at noon today to see if a friend was alive or dead. I hadn't seen him for a long time. He was a part of the group I opened Freedom of Recovery, which was an open group. It ended up he was sick and not there, but it was okay, because I needed the meeting for myself.
As I shared with a lady this morning, I went to AA for my denial and I went to NA for identification. I knew I was an addict, my drug of choice was more.
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 3, 2016 18:00:21 GMT -5
Got this from another site. I think it is awesome.
I am not a musician but have composed a Today ditty that is meant to go to a wrap beat. Anyway it helps me to recall the message and may help someone else. Hey! Hey! Just for today You can be happy the AA (12 step...) way. Adjust to what is-avoid a tizz Mind what you think, never a drink. Read, learn and ponder as you go yonder. Remember your soul-an ongoing goal, Do good discretely Do two tasks meekly Learn to detach-life isn't a match. Being agreeable becomes achievable, Make your own program Do it today You can be happy the AA way. Enjoy some quiet-it's part of the diet Dare never fear, God's always near. Let it go, out you go. Step up to the plate, give help to a mate Forget the fight, look to the light.
Happily today I am sober and have had time to work with Meditations for the Twelve Steps- A Spiritual Journey and the associated workbook and references in the Life Recovery Bible. I have found these very helpful. Yours in recovery Nina
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 6, 2016 1:50:33 GMT -5
Some one has to go wee, wee all the way home!
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 21, 2016 9:39:37 GMT -5
Loved the title of this. It is my choice. Do I choose to act out in my dis-ease or do I choose recovery.
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Post by majestyjo on Feb 25, 2016 17:46:58 GMT -5
This was very enlightening for me. I had stuffed feelings and memories for years and they were very deeply hidden. Recovery was a process and I was one of the very sick ones. Getting those secrets out of the darkness and into the light, brought growth, healing, and new awareness.
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 2, 2016 23:22:03 GMT -5
Just For Today March 1 Anxiety Attack?
“[The] Power that brought us to this program is still with us and will continue to guide us if we allow it.” Basic Text, p. 26
Ever had a panic attack? Everywhere we turn, life’s demands overwhelm us. We’re paralyzed, and we don’t know what to do about it. How do we break an anxiety attack?
First, we stop. We can’t deal with everything at once, so we stop for a moment to let things settle. Then we take a “spot inventory” of the things that are bothering us. We examine each item, asking ourselves this question: “How important is it, really?” In most cases, we’ll find that most of our fears and concerns don’t need our immediate attention. We can put those aside, and focus on the issues that really need to be resolved right away. Then we stop again and ask ourselves, “Who’s in control here, anyway?” This helps remind us that our Higher Power is in control.
We seek our Higher Power’s will for the situation, whatever it is. We can do this in any number of ways: through prayer, talks with our sponsor or NA friends, or by attending a meeting and asking others to share their experience. When our Higher Power’s will becomes clear to us, we pray for the ability to carry it out. Finally, we take action.
Anxiety attacks need not paralyze us. We can utilize the resources of the NA program to deal with anything that comes our way.
Just for today: My Higher Power has not brought me all this way in recovery only to abandon me! When anxiety strikes, I will take specific steps to seek God’s continuing care and guidance.
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 4, 2016 22:51:37 GMT -5
Just For Today March 4 The Process
“This program has become a part of me…. I understand more clearly the things that are happening in my life today I no longer fight the process.” Basic Text, p. 78
In active addiction, things happened seemingly without rhyme or reason. We just “did things”; often without knowing why or what the results would be. Life had little value or meaning.
The Twelve Step process gives meaning to our lives; in working the steps, we come to accept both the dark and the bright sides of ourselves. We strip away the denial that kept us from comprehending addiction’s affect on us. We honestly examine ourselves, picking out the patterns in our thoughts, our feelings, and our behavior We gain humility and perspective by fully disclosing ourselves to another human being. In seeking to have our shortcomings removed, we develop a working appreciation of our own powerlessness and the strength provided by a Power greater than we are. With our enhanced understanding of ourselves, we gain greater insight into and acceptance of others.
The Twelve Steps are the key to a process we call “life”: In working the steps, they become a part of us—and we become a part of the life around us. Our world is no longer meaningless; we understand more about what happens in our lives today. We no longer fight the process. Today, in working the steps, we live it.
Just for today: Life is a process; the Twelve Steps are the key. Today, I will use the steps to participate in that process, understanding and enjoying myself and my recovery.
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