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Post by caressa on Feb 4, 2008 17:08:10 GMT -5
Today I heard it all. I don't think anything else can shock me. I was waiting for my Darts bus and I overheard a guy chatting up a young girl at the front of the clinic. He said to her, "I've been sober for 11 years haven't touched a drop but I sure love my crack!
He reminded me of another fellow I met who said he didn't drink but he sure enjoyed sitting in his easy chair with a big fat joint every night.
My sponsor told me that sobriety means "soundness of mind."
People in NA tend to think of it as belonging to the 'other' fellowship, yet who ever heard of having soundess of mind after smoking a joint or a pipe. The paranoia itself tends to make me question the fact that the mind is anywhere near sound.
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Post by majestyjo on Nov 27, 2016 0:39:55 GMT -5
Over the years, I have found how easy it is to substitute other things for my drug of choice. I do have to take medication, but I don't abuse it and if I am given something that I feel is mind altering, I stop taking it. This is why I went to my doctor's this week as I have been losing my balance and wondering if it was my medication that was causing it. My pharmacist said it was the fluid pill that was causing it, the doctor looked skeptical, but he halfed the dose. I had to question it. It doesn't seem right to be 25 years clean and sober and find myself staggering and having problems walking a straight line. I was getting bruises and blood clots under the surface of my skin, and I felt as though they were dangerous. Recovery is about looking after ourselves. I am a little resentful tonight, because I have slim ankles and no swelling in my feet and legs and it took 11 hours of sleep to get them like that. No one is around to see them but me. It is not living if I am sleeping that many hours, especially when my waking hours are during the night. Again, it is prayer time, asking my God for change and for what I need to bring my life back into balance and regular hours. I always hesitate to say normal. Normal for me is not always a good thing. I even need to change what has been normal in my life.
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