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Post by majestyjo on May 25, 2016 16:10:03 GMT -5
Just for today, I will go with the flow and accept what is, knowing it is subject to change. Things will change, it is up to me to do my part. Sometimes my part is just to recognize what is and just allow my God to work His Will with my life. Today I am having problems typing without makiing errors. This is something I have problems with, but I know it is my tremon disorder, plus the fact that I think I have some kind of virus as I have been playing Queen of the House for most of the day, sitting on my Throne.
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Post by bunnypie on May 25, 2016 20:15:42 GMT -5
Acceptance has never been easy for me. I do resignation more the acceptance. My sponsor pointed out to me that acceptance is letting go of the emotion and resignation is still hanging onto the emotion. I can only claim progress not perfection!!!!!!!
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Post by majestyjo on May 25, 2016 22:29:36 GMT -5
For me, acceptance has been the key to sobriety. I found that I couldn't change anything or move forward until I found it. It didn't mean I had to like it, I just had to accept what is in the moment, knowing it was subject to change if I worked my program and let go and let my God. I was told the 5 As of change were: Awareness, Admitance, Acceptance, Actiion, and Attitude. That is what I called my site on Yahoo, The Five As.
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Post by bunnypie on May 26, 2016 0:03:08 GMT -5
Hey Jo----Those 5 "A's" pretty much cover the program. I have had a grudging acceptance of all the stuff that is happening to me. I certainly don't like it!!! I hang onto the 2 acronyms of AA=Altered Attitude or Attitude Adjustment. AA is like a sliding wrench! It fits almost any nut!---------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on May 26, 2016 22:30:30 GMT -5
Heard a long-timer say, AA has tools for any nut that walks through the doors of recovery.
Quite often I have to take action to change my attitude and/or change my attitude so I can take action.
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Post by majestyjo on May 26, 2016 22:34:54 GMT -5
Just for today, I am still working on acceptance. I missed my AA meeting today and my Al-Anon meeting yesterday. I am meeting up with a friend 11 hours from now to do brunch and go shopping for my sister's birthday present. I am hoping my body will be able to keep up. I am hoping to get more sleep and rest before then. If I don't sleep before 8 a.m., I will have to call and cancel the trip with Darts. What ever will be will be. If I am meant to go, it will happen. I will just have to give my body and my mind a little talking to.
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Post by bunnypie on May 27, 2016 0:20:39 GMT -5
Oh JO!!!!---I understand completely!!! The mind is willing but the body is not able. I am real tired but keep having to get up to use the bathroom. I drink a lot of water after chemo to flush myself out and unfortunately what goes in must come out. It is impossible for me to sleep when I need to pee!!! Good Luck to both of us!!!----Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on May 27, 2016 19:50:17 GMT -5
Well I didn't sleep, but decided to go anyway. I didn't want to sleep another day away. So glad I went, had a really good day.
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Post by majestyjo on May 27, 2016 19:56:09 GMT -5
Just for today, I will put some gratitude in my attitude. Grateful for good fun and frolic with a good friend, which lead to a very good day. They say, "If you have gratitude, show it." Don't just talk about it. I certainly can't take it for granted. It is truly a gracious gift.
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Post by bunnypie on May 28, 2016 0:22:18 GMT -5
Hey Jo---When I force myself to do the next right thing usually good stuff happens. I forced myself to get up at the crotch of dawn and make a meeting before the dreaded 1 foot needle shot under the arm. It really helped me a lot to face what I had to do . The topic was the 3rd tradition and I really had to scratch up a desire to get that procedure done!!!! It hurt like hell and I've felt groggy & fatigued for over 12 hours. I am struggling to do the next right thing and trust the medical M.F. ers that they know WTF they are doing!!!-----Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on May 28, 2016 13:19:02 GMT -5
We don't have meetings that early. More often than not, I am going to bed between 4-7 a.m. and the earliest meetings here are 10 a.m. and I have trouble making my noon meetings.
I don't go out very often at night because the night air makes my arthritis worse and by the end of the day, I am generally hurting too much and am down for the count, especially if I have had a busy day. A busy day for people with fibromyalgia may be just getting out of bed and getting dressed and if I am lucky, cooking a meal instead of just having a sandwich.
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Post by majestyjo on May 28, 2016 13:23:38 GMT -5
Just for today, I will trust the process. Things will unfold as they should, not always as I would have them be. It was nice to run into my friend downtown. I came home, decided to go and get the special on bottled water $1.88 for 24 and bought two and bathroom tissue was $3.99 for 12 rolls. I ended up spending over $100. because I bought a fan and some vitamins. I went back down to the pharmacy and she was there and we came home together. When in doubt, look around and see what is happening with your life. It is a good day for me when I connect with others and I go with the flow, instead of running away from home and trying to make things happen. When I do, I don't make that spiritual connection with others.
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Post by bunnypie on May 28, 2016 13:47:36 GMT -5
Oh Jo---sounds like you got some great bargains!!! I am moping and coping over the cancellation of my lunch date. I am doing water & crackers & sleeping & getting up to use the bathroom and get on the computer. I am thinking the words--woulda - shoulda - coulda over and over and over......Bummed Out Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on May 29, 2016 18:08:50 GMT -5
Just for today, I will be myself. I will not role play and be something I am not to impress others. What you see is what you get. It was a great day in recovery when the insides matched the outside.
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Post by bunnypie on May 29, 2016 19:02:39 GMT -5
A good day is when my outsides DON'T match my insides! Fatigue, queasie, emotional, are on the inside! If I can make the outside look calm, rational, and attractive that is a good day for me!!!!-----Battling it Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on May 30, 2016 18:58:02 GMT -5
Just for today, I am glad that it will be over in 4 hours and 4 minutes. It has been a hurting day.
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Post by bunnypie on May 30, 2016 20:07:02 GMT -5
Hey Jo----I had a friend tell me that he welcomes pain because pain keeps him honest. When his back hurts the pain lets him know not to try to pick up too much weight and to be honest with his limits. I think pain is a lousy 4 letter word and I am always glad when it is gone.....Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on May 31, 2016 8:50:55 GMT -5
I was told that pain in my back meant anger. Holding things in and not letting them go.
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Post by majestyjo on May 31, 2016 18:51:20 GMT -5
Just for today, I am grateful for the people in my life. Today I had brunch with a friend who insisted on paying and a visit from a long time friend when I got home. Grateful for both these ladies, have known them for over 20 years. One I knew 50 years ago and then she went one way and I went another, so very grateful that we reconnected. I am so grateful for the people my God put in my life, be it for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. My favourite piece of prose.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 1, 2016 1:41:33 GMT -5
My Very Dear Jo----This is a classic piece of advice and I thank you again & again for sharing it!!!!---Grateful Bunnypie
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