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Post by majestyjo on Jun 1, 2016 18:29:07 GMT -5
Just for today, I am lowering my expectations and not being hard on myself for not doing what I know I `should`do. I am just not up to meeting them mentally and physically, so I am going to treat myself with some TLC, and just do the best I can in the moment. I have a foot doctor`s appointment tomorrow and I am hoping to make it to my AA meeting. It doesn`t give me a lot of time and the specialist isn`t always on time and I don`t get in right away. If need be, I will take a taxi to the meeting as I have missed the last two weeks, because of doctor`s appointments and pain.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 1, 2016 19:25:03 GMT -5
Plan the plans don't plan the results. My appts. got changed and my care taker/ride to appts. is getting cranky. He has to let people at work know when he has to take a 1/2 day or a full day off. I am so weak and jittery after chemo or shots or blood draws that I am in no shape to drive. It really sucks when they change and rearrange times & days. I feel like they are kicking me when I am down and I don't like or appreciate that at all!!!!!
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 2, 2016 8:02:31 GMT -5
Sometimes life happens that way and it isn't always about us, although it seems that way.
It was when I was 3 years sober that I shared withh another AA member who was coming up to his 3 years and said, "Reality sucks!" He called me in November and said, "You are right Jo, reality does suck." It is what it is, even if we don't like it and thanks to the program, I can deal with it. He is a cancer survivor.
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 2, 2016 8:05:44 GMT -5
Just for today, I will give thanks. The sun has come out, so it just has to be a wonderful day. I do regret not going back to bed when I woke up, here it is an hour and a half, and I want to go back to sleep. It is suppose to be hot today. That is good, my body loves the heat! I will be grateful for what is in the moment, knowing it is subject to change.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 2, 2016 10:46:54 GMT -5
the concept of Live for Today is a d**n good one!!!
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 3, 2016 14:08:39 GMT -5
Just for today, I will practice the principles in ALL my affairs. It isn't about drinking and drugging in today, it is about my emotional sobriety and not substituting other things for my drug of choice. Just for today, I choose to be clean and sober. Sobriety means 'soundness of mind.' Learn to identify, not compare.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 3, 2016 15:45:49 GMT -5
Oh Jo!----I used to have a t-shirt back in my "party" days that said REALITY is for people who can't handle their booze or drugs!!! Today I don't try to escape reality. I face it head on. S-O-B-E-R is Son of B*tch Everything's Real!!! I accept that it is what it is. I am not happy about it. I am not tap dancing on the roof over it. It is what it is. The program and sobriety help me to deal with it. Thanks for telling me about your cancer survivor friend. It does help to know that some do survive!!!!!------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 4, 2016 16:47:28 GMT -5
Have known more that survived than those that died. Continued prayers.
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 4, 2016 17:02:32 GMT -5
Just for today, I will not run from life's problems. I will give thanks and put gratitude in my attitude. I will try to learn life's lesson as I travel through this world. I am listening to the song River Road. So glad I don't have to go there in today. Crystal Gayle
River Road Lyrics
Here I go once again With my suitcase in my hand And I'm running away down River Road And I swear, once again, that I'm never coming home Yes, I'm chasing my dreams down River Road
Mama said, listen child You're too old to run wild You're to big to be fishin' with the boys these days
So I grabbed some clothes and I ran Stole five dollars from a sugar can A twelve year old jail breaker runnin' away
Here I go once again With my suitcase in my hand And I'm running away down River Road And I swear, once again, that I'm never coming home I'm chasing my dreams down River Road
Well, I married a pretty good man And he tries to understand But he knows I've got leavin' on my mind these days
When I get that urge to roam I'm just like a kid again The same old jail breaker runnin' away
Here I go once again With my suitcase in my hand And I'm running away down River Road And I swear, once again, that I'm never coming home I'm chasing my dreams down River Road.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 4, 2016 20:17:56 GMT -5
Thanks for saying you know more that have survived then have not!!! That is a real interesting tune. Can I fin it on Youtube? Music and Humor have been helping me to face all the consequences of my cancer. The mind is willing but the body just craps out and the song that says it for me is Jackson Browne--Runnin On Empty. I am just so glad I can get on the computer and spill out all my thoughts and frustrations without it wearing me out so bad. I miss going out in public and shopping and going to a meeting. The mind is willing but the body won't let me. I thank you so much for posting!!! It helps me to not feel so d**n isolated!!! It has only been 2 days I am on losing it!!!! Aggravated & Frustrated------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 4, 2016 20:47:34 GMT -5
Well this site does it for me. When no one posts, I go back and look at the old ones. This site has been my filling up station for years. For so many years, I coouldn't get out and this site kept me clean and sober, even when they kicked me off for posting too much.
I qualify for all the fellowships and the 12 Steps are the 12 Steps and are common denominators, even when it comes to those on the other side of the street. In fact, I found myself when I went to Al-Anon. My father was the alcoholic. My mom a food addict. Husband #2 never admitted to substance abuse, but I was quick to label him. My son is a self-admitted alcoholic/addict. I read the preface to the book "Codependent No More" by Melodie Beattie and ran to the nearest Al-Anon meeting. Her book "The Language of Letting Go has been a big part of my recovery, along with the book Courage to Change by Al-Anon. If my hands were not so bad, I would post the readings, but can't do all that typing in today. Continued prayers.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 5, 2016 0:07:04 GMT -5
I tried to read Melanie Beattie in early recovery and she was just too prissy & sugary sweet for me. I like my AA straight and unplugged!!! An example is a slogan I heard that really helps me especially in my current situation. The monkey is off my back but the circus is still in town!!! A friend gave me a stuffed animal monkey and I put that saying below it and pet the monkey every day. I am sober so the monkey is off my back but now I got cancer and that is the circus is still in town!!!! Makes sense to me.........Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 5, 2016 9:32:33 GMT -5
Smiling, she is not AA, but she does talk about recovery from a lot of the symptoms of our disease. I read her books more often than I did "As Bill Sees It."
I have had quite a collection of animals myself, either stuffed or as a figurine. i.e. The skunk means respect. Respect. It says, "If your ego is not your amigo, you know it stinks. How can you expect others to respect you if you don't respect yourself.
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 5, 2016 9:35:29 GMT -5
Just for today, I will remember the slogans and apply them to my life. For today, the one that comes to mind is "Easy does it!....but do it!"
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 5, 2016 10:13:36 GMT -5
Oh Jo!!!---the one about the skunk is great!!! I just love the cartoon skunk "Pepe La Pew" He was real romantic and fell in love with a black cat that accidently crawled under a white ladder rung and got a stripe down her back. He chased her and kissed her and she ran like hell cause he stunk!!!! LOL great cartoon!!! He did have very good ego and self esteem cause he was a French skunk!!!! Classic cartoon!!! I am also reminded of the ole Motown song by Aretha Franklin-R-E-S-P-E-C-T find out what that means to me!!! She sang that song in the movie "Blues Bros." and it was just real powerful!!! I am gonna try to Easy Does It but do it today. My room mate is willing to take me for a ride to the cemetery so I can put flags on the graves of my Mom & grandparents. I won't run into any germs there! They are all dead! I want them to all have flags for 4th of July and Labor Day. It is a one hour ride one way so it will be good to get out and do something!!! Good to hear from you! Hope you can "slogan your way thru the day"-----Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 7, 2016 22:30:42 GMT -5
Just for today, I will pray for the health and welfare of friends and family. I can't always be there for them, but I can take time to pray.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 8, 2016 0:16:35 GMT -5
thanks for stopping by to say hi......
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 8, 2016 2:25:50 GMT -5
Just for today, I will set a goal. I will lower my expectations and make the goal attainable and pray and ask for help to do my God's Will for me in today. My goal is to make it to my Al-Anon meeting. At the moment, it is pouring rain. I can't push a walker and carry an umbrella at the same time. The weather channel says sunshine, so I will try to walk in faith.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 8, 2016 5:53:43 GMT -5
Hi Jo---Weather conditions really are "one day at time" I live in Chicago area and have seen the weather change from cool rainy sun hot & windy within a few hours!!! It is always a challenge as to what to wear.......Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 8, 2016 16:37:42 GMT -5
Just for today, I will let go of my anger. This Step isn't a one time deal for me, it is on going. I work Step 10 daily, but to my way of thinking, often what happens in today has a root and trigger that is linked to a past issue. When I am aware that something is wrong, I do a meditation and ask for the knowing that I need to change and let go of what is causing my pain. So often emotions make themselves known physically. I can't, my God can, and it is up to me to turn things over into His Care. I don't want to go around acting out my anger by having hissy fits.
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