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Post by bunnypie on Jun 23, 2016 22:32:46 GMT -5
Hey JO----I get what you are saying & I call it "10th Step time" I continue thru the day to take a personal inventory & when I am wrong (I try) to promptly admit it. My know it all caretaker, landlord, ex-husband constantly points out when I am wrong and I sing a line to a song by 5 man electical band. the name of the song is absolutely right. the line I sing to him is "your absolutely right. you've been right all along. your absolutely right and I'm wrong. It makes me feel less humble when I sing my amend to him and the good part is that he has to listen to me sing my amend if he wants an amend at all!!!! Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 24, 2016 2:12:29 GMT -5
Singing them is good, makes for a happier way of doing something that isn't always easys to do, especially if it means eating crow and humble pie.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 24, 2016 5:51:02 GMT -5
YESSSSSSSSSS!!!! Oh Jo!---You nailed it!! LOL humble pie filled with crow to eat is not appetizing at all and it makes doing an amend d**ned near impossible. I force my self to think of Winston Churchill saying "I don't care how you do it you must sink the Bismark" Amends can be like sinking the Bismark to me so I do it the best way I know how and that is with music and a great rock & roll Quote!!! It works if ya work it (well for me anyway) Thanks for understanding. I have to face the foot long needle in my lower arm just before the arm pit today to help my white blood fighter cells. I just hate it!!! I have to impersonate and adult and just get it done!!! There is an old Neal Diamond song called "do it" the line that says "if you let her go you'll always know you blew it so go thru it & do it yeah do it go on & do it" Words of wisdom!!!!!-----Scared & Stubborn Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 24, 2016 18:36:24 GMT -5
Just for today, I will remember that the Serenity Prayer is a tool that works in recovery when I apply it. As they say, "It works when you work it." It works if I work for it, works better for me. I have to make the effort.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 24, 2016 21:43:32 GMT -5
Oh My God!!! that is so very true!!! If nothing changes nothing changes. I can talk myself in/out of soooooo many things. I am just glad that I talk myself into staying sober. It is easier to stay straight then to get straight and I am definitely 1000% convinced of that........
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 25, 2016 22:24:17 GMT -5
Just for today, I will try to take care of myself to the best of my ability. That means taking a break and getting myself something to eat. I missed dinner, and I know that isn't good, so need to put some food in my body. I feel a headache coming on, so that is a good sign. Pain, pain, go away. That is what I said this morning before going to sleep. I woke up without my ankles being swollen.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 26, 2016 0:10:25 GMT -5
I think you may be on to something! telling the pain to go away is a positive strong thing to do. I have been folding like a cheap card table with all the side effects of my chemo & low white blood cell count!!! I am gonna tell it to go away and see if that helps!!!------Desperate Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 26, 2016 0:45:57 GMT -5
All we can do is try to do our best, one day at a time.
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 26, 2016 1:19:16 GMT -5
Just for today, I am willing to do what ever it takes. If I can't find that willingness, I will pray for the willingness to be willing. Not much of a Beatles fan, this one is for you BP
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 26, 2016 9:02:44 GMT -5
The last line In the last song of the last Beatles album says:AND IN THE END THE LOVE YOU TAKE IS EQUAL TO THE LOVE YOU MAKE!!! This translates out to (in my opinion) If you give it away you get to keep it.......Rock & Roll wisdom??!!!
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 26, 2016 16:49:27 GMT -5
Just for today, I will love the skin I'm in. It may have had some wear and tear over the years, but it is still my skin. For so many years I hated how I looked, always too tall it seemed. I was once told that I couldn't be an Orr, my maiden name, because I wasn't a blond. That really hurt and it stuck with me. I took it on, and yet they were words spoken by someone who I didn't even know, but he knew my dad's two brothers and their family. Be careful of the words you speak, they can make deep scars that take a long time to heal. So grateful for this program and it's healing process.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 26, 2016 21:29:39 GMT -5
I remember a woman saying in her comment years ago in a meeting "sticks & stones may break my bones but your words will always hurt me" I can remember nasty things that were said to me as a child so words really can hang with you a long time!!!! Sunday is suppose to be a day of rest! I went with that all day today------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 27, 2016 16:01:39 GMT -5
Just for today, will remember the word doesn't center around me. I don't have to have the last word. I don't have to be the first one to pick up the phone. I can't let my ego and pride get in the way of my recovery. I must remember where I came from. I have to remember when!!!
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 27, 2016 16:27:56 GMT -5
There is an excellent additional line that a guy name Joe South added to the end of the Serenity Prayer. I says God Grant me the serenity to just remember who I am!!! I really need to keep that in mind & I add it to the end of the Serenity Prayer when I say it. Keeps it into perspective........
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 28, 2016 1:26:53 GMT -5
Like that, as the hymn I sang as a youngster days, "I am lost but now I am found." It is okay to be me. As my sponsor said when I was two years sober, "It is okay dear, that is where you are at in today." Of course, I thought I knew everything by then, when in truth, I was just detoxing. I was one of the really sick ones. When I was 6 years sober I went back and looked at my journal from my early recovery and laughed! As I shared something with my sister Margaret one time, she said, "My you were really one sick puppy, weren't you. I thought I was bad."
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 28, 2016 2:28:00 GMT -5
Just for today, I will try not to be stubborn and dig my heels in. I need to be open, flexible, and leave the old selfish, self-centeredness behind. It is so important to live in today and in the moment. As they say, in the moment has nor room for ego, defiance, resentment, anger, and all those other negative emotions. When I block out the negative, I also prevent the positive energies to flow. Just for today I will go with the flow. I won't go in my own direction and isolate my soul.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 28, 2016 14:02:50 GMT -5
I like that concept of "isolate my soul" There is a line from an old Johnny Cash song that says "inside the walls of prison my body may be but the Lord has set my soul free" I am in isolation/Quarantine but my soul can be set free thru doing email & visiting this site. I can keep a connection with others and that is such a priceless gift to me!!!!!-----Grateful Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 28, 2016 19:24:06 GMT -5
Just for today, I will not be judgmental. I will allow others their space and remember that I need to love the person as a child of God, I don't have to like or love their actions. It is not up to me to judge their motive and intent. I will try not to play 'god' with someone else's life or with my own.
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Post by bunnypie on Jun 28, 2016 21:30:38 GMT -5
The word AMEN means SO BE IT in Hebrew. So Be It Baby---so be it!!!!!!
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Post by majestyjo on Jun 29, 2016 18:25:35 GMT -5
Just for today, I will let go of my anger. A lot of it is from stuff that is none of my business. It certainly isn't something I should take on. I just need to deal with my own feelings concerning te situation. Anger is a danger. It take away my Serenity and threatens my Sobriety (soundness of mind).
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