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Post by majestyjo on Jul 13, 2016 0:08:21 GMT -5
That was brought up at my meeting today. We can do what I can't do alone. For me, it is not just my Higher Power, but the people that my God puts in my life. Continued prayers. ![](http://www.glitters123.com/glitter_graphics/Day_Glitters/Good_Day/Good-Day-Glitters-19.gif#HAVE%20A%20GREAT%20WEDNESDAY%20IN%20GLITTER%20463x471)
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 13, 2016 0:19:12 GMT -5
Just for today, I will remember that I am loveable. Even though I may not always love some of my actions, thoughts, appearance, I need to remember that I am worthy of recovery. I can change and learn to love myself, and recognize that beauty comes from within and is but the surface of who I am. I can not allow a pimple to blemish the outlook I have of myself. I not only had to learn to love myself, but learn to like myself too. Love is akin to hate. Both very strong emotions, as they say, "Opposites attract." I grew up thinking I was ugly all of my life. I found out that most alcoholic/addict think bad of themselves and some of the most beautiiful people that I have met, have the lowest sense of self-esteem. ![](http://www.orkugifs.com/en/images/Good-Morning_48.gif)
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 13, 2016 14:45:59 GMT -5
Just for today, I will not take my pain and anxiety out on others. I will apply the program to my pain and all areas of my life. I have to accept it for what it is, even the unknown and just pray and ask for what I need and ask what I don't need be taken from me. I know I need to do my part. I can't just sit around and not take action. I need to make healthy choices to aid me in my recovery. I might not always sleep, but I can rest. When I stress, I only add more pain because most pains are due to emotions trying to make themselves heard. ![](http://www.animated-gifs.eu/kids-teddies/0007.gif)
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 13, 2016 15:14:49 GMT -5
Oh Jo!!!----thanks for all the beautiful roses!!! I actually had my nose on the screen trying to smell them!!! LOL ![:)](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/smiley.png) I try to be comfortable in my own skin and look for the good. I have NOT lost my eyelashes due to chemo and it feels good to be able to put on some mascara and look like a woman from the forehead down!!! I have learned to pencil in eyebrows so I almost look normal or passing for normal!!! YES nobody can criticize me like me!!! Thanks for letting me know I am not the only one in the whole wide world that does this!!! It is very reassuring!!!-------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 13, 2016 17:55:23 GMT -5
When I was growing up, I knew a woman who was born with no eye lashes. She had to pencil them in all her life. I would have given her some of mine! As I just told my niece. This is what 40 is suppose to look like, beautiful and sexy. She just came out of the hospital with low electolites and blood cell issues which caused her to collapse and taken to emergency. She has 6 children and has a tumor, not sure if it can be operated on. She hasn't lost her sense of humor. She is a beautiful woman inside and out. Her husband loves her dearly and he is the love of her life. ![](http://www.rapidmaza.com/scraps/wednesday/wednesday27.gif)
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 13, 2016 19:35:38 GMT -5
Wow! I love to hear a success story like that!!! I hope she will get the medical attention that she needs...
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 14, 2016 21:00:28 GMT -5
Just for today, I will have patience and tolerance. I know I wrote this out before, I don't know if I posted it and attached it to someplace it didn't belong or if I lost it out into cyber space. I was rushing today to make my appointment because I set my alarm for late and didn't allow myself much time to get ready and walk to the Hollistic Center three blocks away. Then when I got there and had to wait, even though I know they always run behind schedule, my patience wasn't worthy of the situation. Here I am going to a spiritual leader for help and healing and I am being impatient and interlant. Not good, no matter what way you look at it. Not condusive to healing, except for my defects of character instead of my body which is all bent out of shape, and by my reaction, my mind too. It will take a couple of days for my body to shift and change, so I will have to be patience and not tolerate any excuses which come to mind to do what I want to do, not what I should do to get the full benefit of the session. Continued prayer BP, hope all went well for you ![](http://www.animatedimages.org/data/media/556/animated-chick-image-0004.gif)
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 14, 2016 21:40:05 GMT -5
I tried to go to a early AA meeting before chemo. I had to get up and use the bathroom a few times and was not sure if I should put my A$$ or my face in the toilet. I came back to the AA table and had to get up again. I was so mortified and embarrassed that I just left early. I felt like I smelled bad and couldn't face sitting at the table with 15 other people. I was able to see the doctor and tell her about what happened. She wants a stool sample of 3 different samples. I am disgusted that I have to actually take a piece of sh*t out of the toilet and rub it onto a plastic piece and then put the day and time under it. Medical Stuff is d**n disgusting!!!! I am just cringing!!! The doctor has me on a new weaker series of chemo with just 2 IV bags dripping into my veins. I have to do this chemo once a week for the next 12 weeks. she did a physical exam and is very happy that the tumor is shrinking. It has shrank down from the size of a cue ball (pool table) to about the size of a ping pong ball. She says they will do surgery when it gets the size of a marble or maybe a pea. It is a long hard process and I just want to thank you soooo much for letting me talk about it. It does help to talk about it!!! Thanks X 5000-------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 14, 2016 22:12:05 GMT -5
Welcome to my world, that is where I have been the last couple of weeks, doing a test for colin cancer and infection. Trying to find the cause of my loss of weight. I love it and don't want to knock it, but it seems to be too much and not normal for me. ![](http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v490/garcia04/Animated%20Gifs/Chickenlittle.gif)
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 14, 2016 23:58:33 GMT -5
Hate to be cynical!!! but if it is too good to be true then it probably is.......
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 15, 2016 17:55:27 GMT -5
My chiropractor commented on it today and told me to be watchful.
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 15, 2016 17:57:16 GMT -5
Just for today, I will practice minding my own business. It is none of my business what other people think of me and visa versa. I think it is called not taking things personal. ![](http://informationliteracy.org/users_data/6468/1-6-elephant_animation.gif)
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 15, 2016 20:32:39 GMT -5
Mom was a 30 year Alanon when she died and she had a sign in her kitchen that said "was the business you minded today your own?" I have always remembered that! When my doctor tells me to watch something I try to pay attention cause that is what I am paying him for!!! To give me good advice on what to watch for.......Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 16, 2016 18:25:37 GMT -5
Just for today, I will practice acceptance. I will accept where other people come from and who they are. I was met by some attitude today, and then I smiled and thought, remember it takes one to know one, the difference is that I try not to go there in today. I do not like condescention and holier-than-thou attitudes, and I have to remember the times I was on a pedistal and the number of times I fell off. I wasn't deserving to my mind to be there, so maybe it was my insecurities that made me act out and fall off. Today I know I am worthy of recovery and being myself is okay. Not sure that makes a lot of sense, just trying to put some of what I am feeling into words. I really felt hurt and I just had to accept the other person for where they are at. They are not in recovery and don't have a program. ![](http://i415.photobucket.com/albums/pp236/Keefers_/Keefers_Hugs/hugs255Fgeneral255F0713255F1.gif)
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 16, 2016 21:09:52 GMT -5
what works for me is remember what Jesus said when he was hanging on the cross (dying) He said "forgive them cause they don't know what the hell they are doing!!! (or something close to that)When people don't know what the hell they are doing it is easier to try to let things slide and have pity on them......Just As Bunnypie Sees It!!!!!!!
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 17, 2016 1:40:20 GMT -5
Just for today, I will have patience with myself. My body over did things yesterday, I will try and nurture myself and give my body a rest. ![](http://www.jucoolimages.com/images/goodmorning/goodmorning_55.gif)
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 17, 2016 7:44:22 GMT -5
If I don't listen to my body and rest when if says to I will pay for it dearly....Consequences!!!!
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 18, 2016 1:37:08 GMT -5
Just for today, I will be accepting of where I am at instead of trying to fight things and make them happen. I do have blood work to go for today and I would like to get up to see my sister. She had a lot of visitors yesterday, so I will try to fill up the lack there of in today. My head still hurts and my body has been protesting, so I will see where things are at and not overdo things. I will accept my limitations and do what I need to do, not things I feel like I want to or should do. ![](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_llj6dwdT8X1qc0v2vo1_400.gif)
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 18, 2016 3:17:52 GMT -5
Knowing limitations is so important! I can't push beyond my limits or I will pay for it in consequences. I got to remember that I am NOT Wonder Woman (even tho I would look good in those red satin shorts) To Thy Own Self Be True is what I have to remember.....
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 21, 2016 8:36:16 GMT -5
Just for today, I will do what I need to do for my health and well being. Lately, that has been chasing the pigeons off my balcony. I just have to hear them and I lose my serenity. I have a net, but they sit and bill and coo on the otherside of the rail, and I have had them coo and poo on me too many times. I don't want them any where around me. Even when my feet where so swollen I could hardly walk, I was up chasing away the pigeons. ![](https://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQPeOBMsSiMqB5yg5IQyclhRIIl4nABXjcSwnm9qqHSnAT1aYpJRQ)
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