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Post by bunnypie on Oct 12, 2016 15:19:57 GMT -5
Hey Jo---I like the comparison of God as a light house. He gets me on the beam and shows me the way!----Bunnypie  |
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 13, 2016 1:54:33 GMT -5
Just for today, I will practice my acceptance. I have been having problems with my memory and seem to be forgetting a lot of things. I hope and pray that today is a much better day than yesterday. It wasn't so much bad, as it wasn't good. Before I leave my apartment and wait for the elevator, I say the Serenity Prayer. Accepting where I am at in the moment and having patience with myself. Today I have this little elephant to help me to never forget.   |
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 13, 2016 7:24:02 GMT -5
LOL there is a line from an old soft rock love song that says "do you remember what I told you to forget?" I can't remember who did the song or even the name of it but I do remember that one line.... |
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 14, 2016 19:48:50 GMT -5
Just for today, I am praying and asking for patience and tolerance. I am hurting from the neck down and have a head ache. LOL! My son says it is suppose to rain. I just said to a couple of members from my group on Thursday, "I hate it when my body tells me it is going to rain three days before it gets here. It stops you from completely enjoying the sunny days. For me, any day the sun is shining is a good day. It is sometimes hard defining a day a such when you hurt from top to toe. I keep saying, the sun is shining, the sun is shining. It is sometimes hard to put some gratitude in my attitude when that happens. I just have to tolerate it, I know it will pass. I also know I haven't had enough sleep, so need to close up shop and do what I need to do for myself, just for today.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 15, 2016 5:29:09 GMT -5
I have been getting cross eyed tired. Chronic fatigue is what the medical people call it. I have to stop drop & rest. HALT = so simple and basic. IF I am hungry I better eat. If I am angry or lonely I better talk to someone about it. If I am tired I better sleep. The hungry & tired are the ones I can't afford to ignore!!!! My body screams in pain & protest when I do...... Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 15, 2016 19:09:48 GMT -5
Always have to remember that I need to apply H.A.L.T. and all the other slogans and Steps to my body, mind, and spirit. I can be emotionally and spiritually bankrupt as well as physically.
I know I need sleep, but pain often wakes me up or doesn't let me sleep. I just try to get it when I can. Even as busy as my day can be, I am really tired, often over tired, and I just can't sleep. I even wear ear plugs to block out noise so I can sleep in the day time.
It is a real pleasure when I can wake up, roll over, and go back to sleep. That doesn't happen very often, so I appreciate it when I can.
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 15, 2016 19:15:28 GMT -5
Just for today, I will practice patience and tolerance. I did a really good job. I didn't go over and hit the guy that was mouthing off at our dinner. I told myself, you can't hit very hard so it wouldn't do any good. He was brash, crass, loud and obnoxious. Young girls were helping their grandmother serve and he said things that I didn't think were appropriate, but I am old fashioned in a lot of ways. I found him to be verbally abusive and some people can ignore it, but having lived it, I don't want to be around it and I don't think young people need to hear such things and think it is normal and the way the man they will meet, can talk that way and it is cool and acceptable. NOT!!! I am afraid, if looks could kill he would have rolled over and died. So that is not good on my part, and certainly not tolerant. I almost left, but chose to stay.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 15, 2016 21:24:38 GMT -5
Hi Jo---One of my first sponsors told me that it is not my job to teach the world manners just to look at the person and say to myself that they are a good example of what NOT to be. Every one can teach me something. Some of how it works and some of how it DOESN'T work. I have a hard time with concept and do understand what you are saying. The wisdom to know the difference is something I struggle with all the time but at least I am aware of it. It sounds like you had awareness to and were able to stay and tolerate!!! We claim progress NOT perfection.....Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 15, 2016 23:09:05 GMT -5
They were not people in recovery. It was a community event with the people in my building. He sure sounded like he needed it. My spiritual advisor and NA co-sponsor told me that you could learn two things, "How to work your program and how not to work your program." It was strange, I tried to start up conversation and get people around me talking. It was pretty much a one way conversation, I was lucky if I got acknowledgement. Once in a while a got a few sentences but it was like pulling teeth and my aunt use to say. Some of them didn't know me at all and others were acquaintenances, so I was trying to get to know them and let them get to know me. I did what I could, just tried to be open and friendly. The lady beside me was nice. She had a hearing problem. I did get a few words and a smile once in a while. I don't do old lady well. I wanted to wear a skirt, but knew no one would be overly dressed up. I wore a pair of my new floral jersey pants...black with orange, yellow and fire engine red flowers with green leaves. I work a long black t-shirt long enough to cover my butt. I was really hurting, my fibromyalgia and polymyalgia were out in force. I wore the pants to keep my skin on. I needed something soft. I wore jeans when I went out earlier and they hurt when they touched my skin. Maybe I should dress more like 74 instead of 47. |
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 16, 2016 3:08:32 GMT -5
One of the most difficult things I had to learn was that I have to learn to blend into the world. The world doesn't have to learn to blend with me! There is an old saying "when in Rome do as the Romans do" I am sober and a citizen of the world now. I have to learn to blend in and some times it can be very difficult. I don't have a problem with people at meetings because I am one of them but with "civilians" sometimes it can be a real chore. I understand what you are saying------Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 16, 2016 5:08:30 GMT -5
My Native co-sponsor said many years ago, that they were Earthlings. I found when I went back to church, I could understand and get along with them, they were not too sure of me. I went to my bridge club and had no problems interacting with people.
Guys like the one I saw last night, gives other men a bad name. I thought, "I am so glad that I don't have a man in my life. If this is how they act in today, I want no part of it."
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 16, 2016 5:25:16 GMT -5
Just for today, I will try to do the do things that need doing. I won't run away from home and stay to do my laundry, and clean my kitchen. I also have a lot of reading to do to catch up before some books are overdue. Even so, I won't allow myself to hide in my books, I will be disciplined enough to get the work done that I need to do. I will remember that Osho says that you can meditate while doing dishes.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 16, 2016 12:38:47 GMT -5
An attitude of gratitude. I see people in the grocery store with screaming kids and I think "but for the grace of God here am I" I do multi tasking when I am doing laundry I will mop the floor or vacuum the carpet. I think you can make progress when you do that! |
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 16, 2016 12:53:33 GMT -5
My laundry room is on the 3rd floor and I live on the 19th floor. My clothes are safe when they are washing because no one can open the door, but when they are in the dryer, they can be stollen. I have had it happen to me a couple of times. People also take out your clothes if they want the dryer. I don't like others touching my clothes. There is a sign that says "Stay with your laundry." A few weeks ago someone stolle my reading glasses that I left on the window sill while I went to the bathroom. It was a good thing that they were $1. Store glasses and I had more.
Was up and down last night, just woke up and having some lunch, then I have to go down to do the laundry.
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 16, 2016 20:44:29 GMT -5
I use to live in apartment buildings where you shared the laundry room and I know exactly what you are talking about. I had an arrogant thoughtless man dump my clean laundry on the dirty floor so he could put his laundry in. I was furious!!! I came down just in time to see him do it!!! I stayed with my laundry after that. People are so selfish and self centered especially in a laundry room. It is what it is! College of hard knocks and I have to learn the hard way........Baffled Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 17, 2016 16:02:42 GMT -5
Just for today, I will stay positive. I will look at what I have, rather than what I don't have. Through my God, all things are possible, according to His Diviine Will.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 17, 2016 19:43:58 GMT -5
PMA=Positive Mental Attitude.
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 18, 2016 18:20:06 GMT -5
Just for today, I will remember that I have a program. I will apply it to all areas of my life. My life is not longer about drinking and drugging, it is about thinking and my emotional sobriety. Today I was reminded to make healthy choices. As a result, I am sitting here eating the odd bite here and there of strawberries and pineapple. Mmmmm Good. I was planning on KFC because it is Toonie Tuesday, but didn't have the patience to stand in line. My impatience cost me double the price, plus more for the fruit I bought. The only spiritual thing about it really, was the fact that I shared it with my son. I was thinking of keeping it to myself. I have a program, it is spiritual in nature. I need to apply the spiritual principles to my life.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 18, 2016 22:17:29 GMT -5
YES! thinking and emotional sobriety are what I need to focus on too! Thanks for the reminder!
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 19, 2016 10:20:02 GMT -5
Just for today, I will let go of resentments. I fell in love my city because it was green and had lots of trees. Yesterday they cut a small grove of trees across the street from me. They wanted to extend the parking area by the looks of things. Either that, or partiers from Hess Village were using them for illegal reasons. Don't know, I shall miss them. They were not shade for me, perhaps they were being used for shady people, but they spoiled my view. I will get over the "Oh, woe is me." In a couple of days, I will probably forget that they were there.  |
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.
Jun 20, 2021 7:32:46 GMT -5
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.
Jun 20, 2021 7:32:46 GMT -5