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Post by tabbekins on Apr 15, 2016 8:02:30 GMT -5
As a result of my last relapse, I must do 90 days in county jail. I am terrified of this. I was told the sentence could change if I give detectives phone numbers & names. Problem is I don't have phone numbers. The dealer changed it the day I overdosed & my sponsor told me to delete any old numbers, so I did. I have none. I gave a name & description but the police wanted his REAL name & address!! I almost laughed but I didn't - NO DEALER IS GOING TO GIVE U HIS REAL NAME or address & I told them that!! I told them he drives different cars all the time - sometimes its a white car, sometimes a gold car, sometimes a truck sometimes a van!! The police said I wasn't cooperating! So anyway I thought I would get treatment but I got 90 days & IF I GIVE THEM INFORMATION THEN MY SENTENCE COULD CHANGE! I know who on my street uses etc. But I don't know any of their dealers- just a few mames- but I don't believe the cops-they lie. I don't believe they will Change my sentence because its already been adjudicated!!! Help! I need advice!!
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 16, 2016 19:08:35 GMT -5
Hi Tabbekins---I love the title of your post. I think you nailed it! The wreckage of my past. Consequences are real hard to face. We want the easier softer way. You are at a turning point. In How It Works it says "we ask his protection & care with complete abandon" There is a thing called "Divine Providence" that is where God makes good things happen out of bad things. It is like the silver lining in the black cloud. You can use the 90 days to really concentrate on doing your steps, getting closer to God & your sponsor, and above all taking it one day at a time. I wish you well and will be saying a prayer for you. You can find me over in the Chipping Away at Character Defects Column on this site.----Bunnypie  |
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 17, 2016 4:46:04 GMT -5
Sounds like they were trying to make an example out of you. If you use, you lose. We have to expect repercussion as a result of our actions. I have known people with several years of recovery who had to go to jail as a result of things they did in their past. Some have also fessed up to things they did as a way of making amends.
What I put out, comes back, whether they are words or deeds. That is why I try to make healthy choices in today.
They do have meetings and one on ones in the jail here in Ontario, Canada. Not sure what is available there, but there are generally programs available if you want help.
Resentments are the number one killer and takes more people back out than anything else. Guilt is number two. When I get a resentment, it is suggested that I pray and ask for others what I would like for myself. I pray for health, happiness, prosperity, and a spiritual awareness or experience that will help them and me, not continue doing what they are doing and find a change in attitude.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 17, 2016 7:42:10 GMT -5
well said Jo! No alcoholic who wants to stay sober can afford resentment or guilt!!!!!
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Post by majestyjo on Sept 10, 2020 19:14:52 GMT -5
We need to clear up the wreckage of our past, acknowledge it, don't shove it under the rug or keep it too long on your shelf.
I came to realize that some of the best amends I could make, was to stay out of their life.
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.