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Post by bunnypie on Apr 21, 2016 4:16:24 GMT -5
I have angry purple bruises on the right side of my upper chest where they did the surgery for the port installation. I looked in the mirror and was shocked and had instant self pity. I have to carry a plastic card in my purse, put a round disk thing on my key chain, and wear a rubber bracelet all saying that I have a chemo port in my chest. I have to have these identifications until I no longer have the chemo treatments. They also told me I have to go thru yet another surgery to get the chemo port removed!!!  I could drown in self pity but I got to remember that am so grateful to have it done and on the road to recovery! A dear friend of mine told me that this is just a "speed bump" on the road to recovery!!!  Bruised & Bummed Out-----Bunnypie  |
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 21, 2016 7:11:50 GMT -5
Self pity sure never got me anywhere but sitting on a pity pot, which can get uncomfortable after a while. Mind you, I do say that my raised toilet seat is the most comfortable chair in the house. I do like to play Queen of the House and sit on my throne once in a while. After a while, it too grows cold and old. The best way for me to get out of Self is to come to the site and share with others. Be it old posts or new, I will find something I need if I am willing to look for it. There is always a reason to be grateful. Even if I have to take medication for what ails me in today, thanks to the program, I don't have to misuse or abuse it. Self-pity never made my chronic pain and fatigue go away, but coming to the site over the years has always helped. I sure notice a difference when I can't get here. Not just to dump my woes, but share how my God is working in my life, doing for me what I can't do for myself. So often, those words I need to hear are through others, so I thank every one for being a part of my journey.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 21, 2016 10:16:20 GMT -5
Hey Jo---I just got the last (3) three tests scheduled (& I hope they are the last 3 tests) before I start chemo. I get 2 of them done on Monday and 1 of them done on Tuesday then I see my oncologist on Thursday to get the chemo treatment schedule set up. I was diagnosed on April 8th and will most likely get started after my April 28th appt. So I have had a lot of stuff happen in 3 weeks time! I am amazed at how quickly the doctors and hospital are moving on this! I does make me understand how serious this is and that they don't want to waste any time!!! I could feel self pity about that but I am trying to feel grateful instead. They are trying to save my life!!!!!!-------Bunnypie  |
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 21, 2018 8:19:15 GMT -5
Self Pity/Self Forgetting Not my chip today, but it was yesterday as I chaired the meeting last night because members were scattered elsewhere and I had only chaired once before last July when I first joined the group. I figure I have done my time and the members are mostly 2-4 years, and I feel like they need to do the service, it helped me, it can help them. There were a couple of members that are quite new, so it was good to see that I can do service and not sit on my butt and let others do the work. The best way to get out of self is to help someone else.  |
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I could drown in self pity but I got to remember that am so grateful to have it done and on the road to recovery! A dear friend of mine told me that this is just a "speed bump" on the road to recovery!!! 
