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Post by bunnypie on Jul 27, 2016 23:52:40 GMT -5
I can't procrastinate on my 7th chemo treatment. I just have to do it! I will have 9 more after this one and it will be such a relief to have it done.....Bunnypie  |
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 28, 2016 8:56:00 GMT -5
Procrastination is often the way we get sick, we keep putting things off before we have it checked out. I know when I put things off, everything seems to be bigger and badder when I finally get around to doing it.
As the slogan says, "Easy does it...but do it!" It is the second part that I need to work on, my do it's are often lacking.
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 28, 2016 14:09:21 GMT -5
I understand how that is and I have force myself to do stuff a lot!!! This may sound crazy but I actually slap myself on the A$$ to get myself moving. It works! LOL works if ya work it......Bunnypie  |
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 28, 2016 18:33:55 GMT -5
I told my counselor (who got me into treatment and introduced to the program) at the YWCA. I was having terrible migraines and I told her that I had said, "Go away, I don't have time for your right now." She said, "Where did you learn that, I teach that." I just said it, the thought came and I said it.  It didn't always work, but it often got me to where I needed to be when I needed to be there, migraine or not. |
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 28, 2016 20:55:25 GMT -5
Well I was taught that we have to be willing to go to any length to get sober. The 3rd tradition states that the only requirement for membership is the desire to stop drinking. I have to keep that desire alive. I sponsored 2 women who refused to go to a meeting because they had a Tupperware party and Dancing With the Stars was on tv. I fired both of them. Tupperware & Dancing With the Stars are not going to keep them sober. I was not willing to sponsor someone who did not have a desire to stay sober. I can't waste my time. There are too many others who are serious and I can spend my time helping them rather then waste my time on someone who is not serious. I know it sounds harsh! Probably because it is!!!!!!-------Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 28, 2016 21:26:34 GMT -5
I wouldn't go to a meeting either if I could tape Dancing with the Stars. I would go to another meeting at a different time slot. I would give up Tupperware.
When I first came into recovery, I had to miss Jeopardy. It was my favourite show and I was living in the YWCA and I insisted that I watch the show, as I didn't watch much TV. 7:30 p.m. was when I left for my meetings and after I quit watching, the rest of the people watched. I got them hooked on the show.
It was one of the hardest things I had to do in recovery. I had been watching the show for years.
Don't need cold at the moment. Already have a runny nose. As things develop with the shingles they say I may get a fever, so it will be a good thing to utilize then.
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 28, 2016 23:25:48 GMT -5
Well we agree 50% and 50% of something is better then 100% of nothing! I have missed my usual quota of meetings because the cancer has made me so sick & weak. I have not been able to line up rides to meetings and I live out in the country where there are corn fields and no public transportation. I managed to get rides on 2 different days from AA members. My landlord will take me on weekends. I am making approx. one meeting a week when I use to make 3-4 a week. It has been very difficult. I am trying to not get a resentment and just accept that is the way it is. I have helped so many people and now when I need help it just isn't happening. Oh Well!!! Off Topic: I am glad you are seeking treatment for shingles. It is a very serious condition. I pray you can head it off before it becomes full blown!!! Medical problems can be horrible (I know) but the alternative to do nothing can be even worse. Consequences are something I have to really consider and I hope you do too! Prayers, Luck, & Hugs--Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 29, 2016 2:52:08 GMT -5
The last time I went to a night meeting, I was told it wasn't AA's job to get me a ride to and from a meeting. I did get a resentment about that. What ever happened to doing service and giving back. That is why I am grateful to the ex-boyfriend for getting me a computer. Grateful for this site. I got kicked off it by the powers that be twice, but I kept coming back and here I am in today. I was told that I posted too much. If no one else posts, I figure that you need material to be here for them to read. What good is a site if it doesn't carry the message of recovery.
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 29, 2016 4:55:03 GMT -5
My current sponsor tells me to not have expectations and to not be pushy! I asked her if it was okay to blink and to breath???!!! I am getting cynical and thinking that the hand that will help me is at the end of my arm......I have been accused of TMI (too much information) and WTMI (way too much information) The idea of treat it like a cafeteria-take what ya like and leave the rest is a novel idea! Just don't leave it all cause there is bound to be some good stuff in there somewhere!!! That's my story and I'm sticking with it!!!----Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 30, 2016 19:30:01 GMT -5
I was told to take it because you might run into someone who does need it and then you will be able to pass it on, even if you don't need it yourself, it doesn't make it wrong.
I always say that I have short-term memory disorder and when I put it on the shelf, I am inclined to forget about it. I don't like dusting, so it may take a while for me to find it on the shelf and find it. So when I look for what I need, I can't forget to look on the shelf to see if it is there.
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 30, 2016 21:59:58 GMT -5
I don't mean this to sound arrogant! I have been in AA for 32 years and I have forgotten more program then some people have ever learned!!! I go to meetings to be triggered and reminded of stuff that I learned years ago. I too have ISM=Incredibly Short Memory and have to re-learn stuff again & again. It is alcohol-ism not alcohol-wasm! This disease can kill me at 32 years just the same as someone with 32 days. I have to be vigilant and realize that I am only in remission and won't ever be cured!!! This keeps me going one day at a time.......
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 30, 2016 23:43:51 GMT -5
I agree, I need the program just as much in today as I did 24 years ago. What I did yesterday, doesn't keep me sober in today. It is a one day at a time program.
I didn't see it as arrogant. I was just sharing what was said to me. I didn't have a shelf and I wasn't too interested in hearing anything I didn't want to hear.
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 31, 2016 1:13:53 GMT -5
LOL I understand what you are saying! When I don't want to hear something it goes in one ear and out the other! I have "selective hearing" and that is why I have to keep going to meetings. I still tune out when people are going into boring blow by blow accounts of their childhood or family issues. Some people say the same thing over & over and I will get up and go to the bathroom and come back to the table hoping to miss out on their comment. The club I go to people are always getting up to use the bathroom or to get more coffee. There are some meetings where it is frowned on to get up and come back. My attention span is still not very long but it is longer then it use to be so I guess that is "progress not perfection"------Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 31, 2016 2:10:43 GMT -5
There is selective hearing and tunnel vision, but then there are people that need to be told that this is a one day at a time program and we deal with just for today. We can change the past, we can't dwell on it, but we can work the steps and allow ourselves to be healed.
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 31, 2016 4:13:09 GMT -5
Some one once told me that even God can't change the past!!! YES! people need to be told it is a one day at a time program there are just a few details---who is going to get the courage to tell them? who is going to risk a confrontation? ? |
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 31, 2016 15:16:08 GMT -5
Me!
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Post by bunnypie on Aug 2, 2016 5:16:44 GMT -5
Wow!
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.