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Post by bunnypie on Jul 28, 2016 23:51:13 GMT -5
I have been trying to get to sleep for a few hours. I hate how I have to keep getting up to use the bathroom. It makes it hard to get back to sleep. I would love to get some sleep but I keep getting "interrupted" My mind wants to sleep and my body wants to keep getting up. I hate when the body and mind are not on the same page!!! I love that I can come here and b*tch about it!!!  I am so grateful to be able to talk about my chip of the day! I love to name it claim it dump it!!! It is helping me to clear my mind and hopefully get back to bed and get some rest. I think rest is a wonderful 4 letter word!!! I am starting to get drowsy so I will try it again.------Drowsy Bunnypie  |
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 29, 2016 2:59:22 GMT -5
Thougt of this combo earlier tonight. I always liked the ad that said, "Love the skin your in." For so many years I hated myself and thought I was ugly. A native woman who was my co-sponsor said, "Stop it, you are a very attractive woman. Quit beating yourself up."
She said, "Look at all the male friends you have." I said, "They are friends, they aren't attracted to me. They feel comfortable with me because I allow them to be themselves and once in a while, I will throw a motherly word at them." I have been called mother since I was in my late 20s.
The hard part is learning to like yourself.
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 29, 2016 5:10:39 GMT -5
YES! I am my own worst critic! One of my first sponsors back in the day told me "you are a woman & an alcoholic and that is a deadly combination" If the alcoholic part of you doesn't trip you up the woman part of you will" I have always remembered that! I had a man who liked to give long silent pregnant pauses when he was talking and I would think he was finished and start talking. He would constantly yell at me that he wasn't finished and I said well you weren't talking so I thought you were! He made me listen to a song by Joe South called Games People Play and it goes on & on about stuff but the very last line hit me like a ton of bricks!!! "God grant me the serenity to just remember who I am!!! I am a woman and an alcoholic who is trying to recover from (now) 2 deadly diseases. I love/hate the process and YES I am struggling to also like/love myself while I am doing it!!! Thanks again & again for understanding that!!! I love to be understood and hate when I am misunderstood!!!!------Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Jul 29, 2016 9:48:38 GMT -5
For me it was surprising, I don't know why, because I always thought of my self as ugly, but two very attractive people in the program thought that were ugly and had very low self-esteem.
I always liked the advertisement for Exclaimation perfume, "This is what 40 is suppose to look like. It was made by Linda Evens from Dynasty. Over the years I have said, this is what 50, 60, and 70 is suppose to look like.
As I like to say, "Accept what is in the moment, knowing it is subject to change.
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Post by bunnypie on Jul 29, 2016 11:25:43 GMT -5
When I was in my 28 day treatment center in 1980 they told me that an alcoholic is an ego maniac with an inferiority complex. That is tug-o-war material for sure!!!! One extreme to the other!!! I have to try for a balance some where in between that. I have found out what cancer looks like. A bald head permanent black bags under the eyes a chemo port in the upper side of my body near the shoulder. I have found out what I look like with high scoop neck tops and base ball hats. I know it won't change until sometime in 2017 and yeah I just have to accept it. I don't like it but I have to accept it........Bummed Out Bunnypie
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I am so grateful to be able to talk about my chip of the day! I love to name it claim it dump it!!! It is helping me to clear my mind and hopefully get back to bed and get some rest. I think rest is a wonderful 4 letter word!!! I am starting to get drowsy so I will try it again.------Drowsy Bunnypie 
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.