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Post by bunnypie on Sept 4, 2016 0:24:03 GMT -5
I have always liked the acronym for GOD=Good Orderly Direction. When I am putting one foot in front of the other and doing the next right thing I consider that to be Good Orderly Direction or being God Centered. The other acronym for GOD=Group Of Drunks and when I go to an AA meeting and hear what the Group Of Drunks have to say I think that is God talking to me thru people!---Bunnypie  |
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Post by majestyjo on Sept 4, 2016 8:21:30 GMT -5
Self-Centered is thinking my way is the only way. God-Centered is turning my day into my God's Care and allowing Him to orchestrate my day.
When I am focused on how I look, at what I am wearing, will they like me, will they accept me, I am living in Self-centered. When I wear what I like, what is comfortable, what feels good and what I think looks good on me, not matter what the fashion is in today, I am God-centered. I have had people say, "Would you be offended if I gave you some clothes that are too small for me." I replied, "They will be new to me." There may be things I don't like, and then I will pass them on to others.
We can get caught up in the Almight Self and try to play God with our lives and that of others.
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Post by bunnypie on Sept 4, 2016 11:13:54 GMT -5
Hey Jo---There is NO way I can play God when I have cancer & alcoholism smacking me around every day. I beg God on bended knee with a humble heart to either let me live or die. It is his call!!! I seem to keep waking up and living so I guess that is God's will for me???-----Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Sept 4, 2016 15:39:54 GMT -5
Sounds like He isn't finished with you yet or you have a lesson to learn or an experience that you need to go through.
Have you applied the Steps to your Cancer? They are applicable to all areas of our life.
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Post by bunnypie on Sept 4, 2016 16:12:43 GMT -5
YES! I am still on step one with the cancer, it has made my life very unmanageable!!!! I had to scramble to find hats & shirts that hide my bald head and the scars from where the chemo port is on my lower right side. I feel very hideous, bald, & disgusting. My self esteem is in the toilet. My red blood cell count is down and I don't have a lot of energy. This is why I am trying to get people to visit the site so I can crawl from bed to computer and have a WTTW (window to the world)-------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Sept 4, 2016 16:20:27 GMT -5
Perhaps not carrying about your scars and look at them as badges of honour for the strength and courage you have had going through this.
Remember that we don't have to look outside of ourself to feel better. You are a child of God and loved. You don't have to just share with people you know, share with the people who visit the site. They might not be able to share or get onto the site, but if they come, there are message for them here. That is why I post or I would have abandoned this site a long time ago. It isn't about hearing the sound of my own voice as someone once declared, but it is sharing with others because I couldn't get out to f2f meetings, and they say, "If you don't give your recovery away, you will lose it." That isn't an option for me, so I just come here each day and share how I feel and tell how the program works and worked for me over the years. What I did 25 days, weeks, months, or years ago doesn't keep me sober in today, but it gives me hope for a better tomorrow, if I just work my program in today.
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Post by bunnypie on Sept 4, 2016 20:48:20 GMT -5
There is an old saying "Don't judge the book by it's cover" It sounds good but unfortunately people DO judge the book by it's cover. I have had people look and then quickly look away when they see me looking all bald & sickly. I am very lucky that I never stopped eating and have NOT lost a lot of weight to where I look like a bag of bones. Some of the people I see each week at chemo treatments look like the walking dead!!! They are bags of bones because they can't or won't eat. The acronym HALT=Hungry Angry Lonely Tired. I force myself to eat a lot of little snacks all thru the day. I get lonely and tired so I do a lot of naps. When I get lonely I try to go to a face to face meeting OR I like to come to this site and have my WTTW- (window to the world) I am hoping we can get more people to come to the site. I noticed that we had (2) two people reply to you F150 & GM so there are people out there!!! Sharing experience, strength, and hope is what is going to help get support for this site!!! Just As Bunnypie Sees It |
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Post by majestyjo on Sept 5, 2016 1:21:47 GMT -5
Yes, it is a shame that they don't contribute to the site and share their journey in recovery.
Judging a book by it's cover sounds like a lot of vanity and pride. Every time I get too full of myself, my God sends me a few people to remind me to be grateful. I worry what people will say about my tremon disorder, and still don't like it when I have a bad hair day and have to my way of think, have to wear a hat to cover it up.
One man in particular has been put in my path. He has been badly burnt, has no eye lids and lashes and very little but holes for a nose, yet I see him walking tall downtown. Beauty comes from within.
You are not alone, I spent two years isolated in my bedroom, with my bed, my chair, and my computer, with trips to the bathroom, the kitchen and to my living room to answer the phone. Now I have my phone in my bedroom. Even though I am able to get out and about this past year, my whole world is centered in my bedroom. I don't have a man to share it, and that is my choice.
I know it is about sharing experience, strength, and hope and I have been here doing it for years. Even though I was asked to leave the site for posting TOO MUCH, I came back. No one was sharing, except for their own little part and no one was addressing anything but chipping away and check in. It looked like a gossip column.
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Post by bunnypie on Sept 5, 2016 9:00:38 GMT -5
Did you ever think to yourself WHY?! It seems like you don't have an idea of how much is too much??? Did they say what the Quota was??? I have never ever heard of anyone ever getting kicked out of a site for posting too much!!! YOU are the only one!!! I have been in face to face meetings where people have rambled on for over 20 minutes and the chair person had to cut them short because there were other people who still had not made a comment and the meeting was running too long. I have heard in the starting format of meetings where the chair person would say limit your comment to 3-5 min. so every one has a chance to talk. It can be discouraging to people when they can't get a word in edge wise!!! There was a sign at the AA Club that I started at back in the day that said "Oh Lord fill my mouth with all good stuff and then nudge me when I've said enough"----Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Sept 7, 2016 13:00:44 GMT -5
Well they did it to me here twice. Ask Lin. It also happened at another site, a guy asked me to help build his site, and then when it was up and running, I was asked to leave. Most people don't want to hear what I say, but that is okay. I start my day with prayer, I pray before I post and ask for the knowing and truth I need in today.
I have left this site before, I can do it again. No problem. My sobriety doesn't depend on it, but it was life saving for me. All I wanted to do was give back.
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Post by bunnypie on Sept 7, 2016 18:17:03 GMT -5
There is a saying "Variety is the spice of life" It is good to get a variety of feedback from a variety of people!!! I understand about going overboard. In AA they say "one is too many and a thousand not enough" YOU need to work on getting a balance and not do too much or not enough. This is the whole idea behind the Chipping Away at Character Defects. The idea is to try to get a balance!!!-----Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Sept 8, 2016 15:42:24 GMT -5
Laughing! I am an Aries. Aries don't do balance. Our opposite sign and supposedly compatible sign is Libra, Mr. Balance himself. The one I met, drove me crazy.
Tuesday was a day and a half. Wednesday was a crash day, didn't do anything but post and cook dinner, which was really yummy because I took the time to care. That doesn't always happen with me and food lately. Today was my home group, went to the library and now I am resting before cooking dinner.
Some days are just better than others. I don't have bad days any more, I just have bad moments in a day. I am so grateful for the tools of recovery.
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Post by bunnypie on Sept 8, 2016 16:58:43 GMT -5
Hey Jo---you have been sober for 25 years! You know how to balance the drinking/using against sobriety!!! It can be done! We just have to PRACTICE THESE PRINCIPLES in all of our affairs. Nobody said it would be easy.....Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Sept 8, 2016 17:08:18 GMT -5
I have NEVER BALANCED drinking/using against sobriety!! It is about balance in my life because in today, I do not drink and use people, places, and things to escape reality. If I find myself going there, I recognize where I am at, and either call my sponsor or a friend, go to a meeting, and/or do a meditation.
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Post by bunnypie on Sept 8, 2016 22:50:25 GMT -5
What you just described is just another way of saying that you balanced your drinking/using by calling your sponsor, going to a meeting and doing meditation. It is the same thing just in different words!!!!---Bunnypie
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.