Wednesday September 14th, 2016 Chip Self Centered/God Center

[bunnypie]

It is hard to NOT be self centered when I am feeling lousy. I woke up with belly cramps and barely made it to the bathroom. I have an early appt. to see the surgeon today about setting a date for surgery. I am scared to go under the knife and have been worrying about it a lot. I have not been sleeping very much and am constantly tired. When I do sleep I have to wake up and use the bathroom. I have been asking God to help me and using the Serenity Prayer a lot!!! I like to add the line at the end of the Serenity Prayer "God Grant me the serenity to just remember who I am" I am a cancer patient who is approx. half way thru treatment. In How It Works it says "half measures avail us nothing. we stood at the turning point. we asked his protection and care with complete abandon" Maybe I need to work more on the complete abandon part?----Baffled Bunnypie

[majestyjo]

It is hard not to be into Self when we are hurting. I know it is true for me. Even way back, my sister would make fun of me, do what I call a swan dive, lay back, put the back of her hand on her forehead and say, "Oh woe is me!" Use to crack me up. I have been known to ask someone if they want me to bring out my small or big violin.

As my new favourite saying states, "Surrender is not giving up, it is giving over." When I turn my day over to my God, things don't always get better, but I am better equipped to handle it.

[bunnypie]

YES!!! I think pain is the body saying "take care of this--something is very very wrong" I have an actual white flag that I made from a piece of plastic picture frame that was broken and a white wash cloth that I taped on to it. When thing get really really bad I get on my knee and wave the white flag for several minutes and say "I surrender God!!!!" it is doing it physically, mentally,emotionally, and definitely spiritually!!!! Works if ya work it.....Bunnypie