Sunday October 2nd, 2016 Chip Acceptance/Defiance

[bunnypie]

I just got home a while ago from seeing that classic rock band 8 Track. They rocked!!! I got up to dance a few times and my legs were burning and almost folded like a cheap card table on the dance floor. I have to have acceptance that the cancer & chemo has robbed my bones of bone marrow. I am defiant and don't want to face not being able to dance to some good foot stomping rock music
The mind says "go for it" and the body says "no way" I have a real tug-o-war going with acceptance & defiance!!!! ----Bummed Out Bunnypie 

[majestyjo]

For many years, when I went to the Autumn Leaf Round-Up, our AA convention that is held every year, I would dance, knowing that I would suffer for 2-3 days afterwards. Three years ago, I had to surrender and accept the fact that I could not dance. Not only my legs, but my feet wouldn't allow it. Wearing orthonics doesn't make for good dancing. I haven't been able to wear high heals for about 10 years.

For many years, I defied convention. My acceptance doesn't mean I agree and haven't gone kicking and screaming all the way, because I refused to grow old. The mind was forever young, even when I found maturity, the mind was willing, but the flesh was weak.

Again, it is about praying for the willingness to be willing to accept things as they are in the moment, knowing that they are subject to change.

[bunnypie]

Hi Jo---My legs have been burning & aching. I understand what you are saying about "paying for it" because of dancing. I also understand about the "kicking & screaming all the way"kind of acceptance....Bunnypie