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Post by bunnypie on Oct 6, 2016 1:36:20 GMT -5
I have a smoldering prejudice toward medical people. I got called one hour before my MRI appt. and had the time and location changed. They do things to where it is easier for them and too bad for me! I had to get this done as it is a matter of life and death. I have a surgically implanted chemo port to make it easy to draw blood and do IV's. Nobody at the hospital knew how to use it and I was punched full of holes in my arm and now have purple bruises because they were not educated on how to use a chemo port!!! There is no equality in medical training!!! Some are more educated then others!!! I am just so glad to have this procedure done and am waiting for results and a time to be set for surgery. I have to be so careful to not let my prejudice over whelm me!!!!-----Bunnypie  |
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Post by dragonpct on Oct 6, 2016 11:13:31 GMT -5
Hey bunny pie
So good to talk you again. Awesome chip today. I do better with accepting it is what it is. Prejudice can come in many forms, like you with the medical field. It's things we don't understand that gets us. My is against people who hurt animals or children. I can't understand anyone could hurt innocent little children or animals who are helpless. It brings up so much anger toward them. I want to beat the living nuts out of them. My program says live and let live but dammit something are not acceptable. I can tolerate some things and some things I can't. I guess I am a work in progress I know the program tells me to pray for them I just want evil wipe out.just saying
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 6, 2016 17:41:59 GMT -5
Good to see you made it back dragonpct. BP needs all the support she can get during this difficult time.
Don't have a lot of prejudice. I think the biggest thing is people who know better, but do it anyway. I guess it boils down to what it says in the Big Book, "..some people are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves. As you say dragonpct, it boils down to acceptance.
I like the saying, "Don't walk behind me, or in front of me, but walk beside me...." We are all on this journey together, with hopefully one goal in mind, to stay clean and sober in today. I know I couldn't stay sober unless I stayed clean too from all mind altering substances. The drug is but a symptom of my disease, the problem has always been me. It all leads to the same soul sickness, so thinking one drug is different than another, or better or worse than an other, is a complete falicy (not sure that is spelled correctly). It is self-justification and denial. I had a very dear friend who kept saying, "I am not as sick as he is." As a result it took him many years to get one year of sobriety. Most times, it was one month of sobriety. It was a great day when he got 18 months, the last time I saw him.
I would laugh at meetings when I heard people say, "I am a real alcoholic." That is like saying, "I am a little bit pregnant."
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 6, 2016 19:49:57 GMT -5
Hi Dragon!!!----So good that you could stop by!!! I totally agree about animals and children being abused. It is usually someone who is a lot bigger and stronger. I think they are miserable cowards and should pick on someone their own size. YES!!! It is what it is....I will always remember you explaining the difference between resignation & acceptance. You told me that Acceptance is to give up and let go of the emotion. Resignation is to give up but to hang onto the emotion. I know I still have a lot more resignation then I do acceptance but at least now I have the wisdom to know the difference!!! Thanks to you!!! Hugs & Stuff------Bunnypie  |
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 6, 2016 19:52:10 GMT -5
Hey Jo----people who know better but still do it anyway are heart breaking! Just my opinion.------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 6, 2016 20:27:31 GMT -5
Not talking about people who are trying to stay sober, those who claim to be sober. They talk a good story. I co-sponsored one. It was sad. He could not get honest.
I guess I have always been a hard task master when it came to my own recovery. I heard my sponsor talk to some men at an AA convention and she said, "Well I am an alcoholic, what do you expect?" They she spoiled the whole thing and giggled. My immediate thought was, "you have a program, work it." One day at a time, I TRY not to act out in my disease, or if you wish, my dis-ease that wants me to look outside of myself for something OUTside of myself, instead of going within and connecting to my Higher Power. It was my stuff. I stopped calling her though on a regular basis. To me, that is not recovery. Being an alcoholic is not an excuse for bad behavior.
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 7, 2016 0:12:05 GMT -5
When a person has a cold they cough & blow their nose. When a person is an alcoholic they do crazy sh*t it is a symptom of their disease. I am guessing that is what the woman at the convention was trying to say. Alcoholism is cunning, baffling, powerful and I like to add patient. I am sober for many years and I still do crazy sh*t. It is not just the drinking it is the thinking!!!! Just As Bunnypie Sees It...
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Post by majestyjo on Oct 7, 2016 2:01:50 GMT -5
Smiling, of course it is about the thinking. That is the nature of our disease. Other than a thought once in a while that a glass of wine would go down good with a turkey Thanksgiving dinner with all the trimmings, I don't think alcohol. I have these thoughts every time I have a big Turkey dinner, just turkey not anything else. I use to make my gravy with wine. I have a friend who has over 30 years of sobriety who has liquor in his house for cooking. I would never put myself to that kind of test. That is just me. My last drink was with a friend who I met at Mohawk College, who went on to study at McMaster University here in Hamilton. She was heading back to Hawaii. We had a steak dinner and two glasses of wine. That was August 20, 1991, and I have had no desire to drink since. For me to drink is to die and I choose not to go there. I acknowledge the feeling and have a chuckle and let it go. Having a glass of wine I may be able to do once in a while, but it wouldn't be long before my one would be a bottle. I used alcohol like I used other things in my life. i.e. food, men, work, pills, computer, etc. I can have the thought, but I can't allow it to take me any where, especially not to the liquor store which is about 5 blocks from me. I pass it every day when I go to the mall. At one time, in early recovery I didn't even what to walk past a store. I bought my son a six pack about 21 years ago. I had it in a bag and I was so fearful of running into someone I knew. I felt guilty just walking into the place. It wasn't the kind of message that I wanted to carry. I never bought him one again.
As I said, "Alcohol is but a symptom of my disease, the problem is me." If I don't change my thinking, I am a dry drunk. I can't have any peace of mind and serenity, if I don't change the old ways of thinking, acting, and I had to let go of old behaviours, habits, and patterns.
As you say, "It is cunning, baffling, and powerful." As someone shared today, resentments are the #1 killer of alcoholics, followed close behind is guilt.
As my spiritual adviser and sponsor once said, "If you got up before 7 a.m. this morning, you have more sobriety than I have. He had over 20 years of sobriety. He was diagnosed with cancer and was told he had 3 months to live. When I met him, he was working on his second year. He later got Parkinson's Disease, he had major healing with that as well. I haven't heard if he is still living, he celebrated 44 years about 5 years ago.
He is the one who told me that if you have one hand in the hand of a newcomer and the other hand in the Hand of your Higher Power, you will never had a hand free to pick up.
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Post by bunnypie on Oct 7, 2016 14:08:53 GMT -5
I love to hear Quotes from people with 40 years or more. My sister shared a quote with me and I am desperately trying to hang onto it. I have been doing a lot of thinking ahead and this quote really nails it!!!!----3 Day Rule there are only 3 days you have to worry about The day you were born, the day you die, and Today!!! I need to try to stay in today and not be looking back or forward. It is so d**n hard when making appts. and worrying about surgery and the outcome. I can only try my best and remember Mom's words "hope for the best & cope with the rest"-----Bunnypie
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.